I'll bite my tongue.

Najib San.

2010-06-23T13:34:00.004+08:00

He said: Baby, you love me how many percent? :P

My man, you will never fail to make me smile. Ily to death. :)

Munich

2010-05-11T01:10:00.005+08:00

With a thousand words to say but one.

hello, I rest my case you scumbag.

2010-04-26T01:29:00.012+08:00

Flicked my cigarette.

bad news for hangover.

2010-02-27T22:15:00.004+08:00

Today, a friend of mine sent me message saying "Man , I am so sorry but we were both really drunk and I swear it didn't mean anything." FML

In pursuit.

2010-01-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

How long before the victims

of all the smoke and fire in our eyes.

Come by stealth in the starless night,

In pursuit of their very lives?

2010-01-10T20:17:00.005+08:00

Im leaving my fingerprints in the end.

2009-06-10T16:18:00.010+08:00

I didnt see this coming. I swear. It's true after all.
Im not prepared.
I wish you well.
Dreams, dreams, dreams.
All I could do now is wait.
Wait for?
Dont ask.

No more counting down.
Cause its finally over!
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
I cant fucking wait for tomorrow baby!
See.... Ive fucking survived.
Hehe!

I will love and miss you like fugggg baby.

2009-05-31T15:17:00.003+08:00

A DREAM OR SUBCONCIOUSNESS?

To prick yourself with a needle portends problems due to the bad
luck of a relative or close associate.

2009-04-29T17:07:00.008+08:00

Everything seems to be quite in place now. Im relief. Turning a new leaf. Partially I guess. Just so you know.... I want this more than I want anything else. Life has been really nice to me. Syukur alhamdullillah. Thank you God. Im getting back on track now. Im back to school anyway. I hope this would work out well this time round cause it's the one thing I know I could make it in. No more nonsense. I hope. Been looking forward to it and yes Ive finally got it. Alhamdullillah. People around me have been really supportive especially my beloved Mama. I love you. Thanks for the listening ears and the shoulder to cry on. And surprisingly, you understand me, at last. One thing that I'll never forget is when you said that you'll always remember me in your prayers. I love you Mama. :) However, I cant deny this, I mustn't take things for granted. Things could change its bend and take action immediately. So I have to be prepared, emotionally and mentally. Im willing to face it, if it is for the right reasons. Ive learn alot, you taught too much. And Im putting every single thing into consideration. It's hard for the both of us. I know. Repetition ends in failure, but when repetition ends, we'll start over okay? Enough said.

You know I love you like fuggg baby.
I swear I'll always do....

i hate this part.

2009-02-23T00:50:00.004+08:00

You want it so bad. I let you have it.
It just started moments ago. hell yeah.
Have a nice week ahead without me. i mean it.
Prolly you'll be thanking God now.
Im not that important after all.
Thanks.

i swear the world is being a bitch today. fugggg.

but you know i love you like fuck baby.

2009-02-20T19:38:00.003+08:00

Everybody

screeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaammmmm!!

2009-02-19T14:51:00.008+08:00

Sick Bitch.

I hate this part right here. Ive been sick lately. Everything just keeps piling up on my already weak body. I had a long-term medical leave from doc. It's still not enough. I'll be back to work tomorrow and I hope I could carry out my duty as per normal. I felt bad for my kids. They have long been neglected by me. I hope I could make up to them tomorrow at school. I miss them loads. Especially my dearest Keira. She must be missing me too. And not forgetting my Malcolm. Who would only want me by his side every second. Everywhere, anywhere and anytime he would be sticking with me like glue. How adorable in an annoying way. I have a life you know kid. okay enough said bout my kids.

I dont know what's wrong with me for the last past weeks. Ive been getting real sick lately. The sickness just appears one by one. Im surprise with what my life could bring me. A sick sick bitch. Simple. Im worried about my self-being. Why must all of this happen in times of money crisis?? Why? You know getting sick means losing money. And I hate it. When im on medical leave it means NPL. And that's losing money. Let me see how long have I'd been on medical leave..... about 5 days. I'll repeat this clearly, 5 DAYS. Jeezzz..... the money taken out from my pay is alot. And they pay me like crap. So now I'll recieve an even more crappier pay this month. How can this get anymore better? fuck. I hate this part.

In this case, Ive made up my mind to stop my current job. The explanation for this might be really hard for me to convey here. I just make it straight to the point with simple words for you lovely people to understand and read.

"Under circumstances, I, Nurul Asyiqin bte the
father, have long been wanting to look for a higher pay job and wish to resign from my current low paying job."

I know in the earlier part before I start my job, I did say that Im fine with the job. However, to my accord, I realised I shouldn't take the risk of signing the borne with them. Im afraid I could not carry out the duties with some valid reasons.

The reasons are as stated:

1. I have this gut feeling of me dropping out halfway through the borne because I jolly well understand myself.

2. I do not want to take the risk of paying about $5k if something happen in the middle of the borne. Im not some kind of a rich man's daughter you know.

3. The travelling part to my work place is very hectic and I hate the long long journey be it going to work and going back home. At least 6 trips per day. Transport money??? hell balls I cant survive like this.

4. Because of the tremendous time taken for the travelling part, Im sure I'll have no time to study or finish up my assignments when I begin the borne. I'l be tired as ever. I promise.

5. Last but not least, the pay I get suck balls big time! I swear in the name of god. It really sucks big time.

I've made up my mind. I just applied for Higher Nitec in Early Childhood just moments ago. I hope there are still vacancies. Or maybe some of the 'O' levels leavers who got the course and decided to give up on it might bring me a little chance of getting in. I hope so. Results will be release latest by 3rd April 09. I hope I could get the spot in the course. Insya'allah. This is an option for me after Ive resign the job. I might be opting in taking private dip. but is way too expensive for me. See how things goes. I need at least a CPT just to get a higher paying job in this field. My passion for this is in me. I hope I'll make it through.

till my next update......

xoxo

p.s: I know you love me bitch. xoxo. haha!

Happy 6th Monthsary (part 2)

2009-02-18T19:30:00.005+08:00

p.s: like it, love it, hate it, whatever, just enjoy it. :)

Happy 6th Monthsary!

2009-02-17T14:13:00.007+08:00

Today is the day that marks our never ending love for each other.

A text message send from me to him yesterday night at 1.34am.

Sayang, happy 6th month anniversary!! I love you so so much tau. Im proud and happy with where we are now. I'll promise to hold you tight and to love you more and more as the days passes. Don't be let down by the ups and downs we've been through cause it brings us closer and stronger. There is still more for me to learn and understand about you. So lets help this relationship grow bigger by playing a part kay dear. Good night and sweet dreams sayang! Love you sayang! Muahhxx! :)

Might be wondering how we celebrated it? Okay. Here's the awesome plan that I had for him. It was celebrated as an advance anniversary because of circumstances, he's working and Im suppose to be working today (im on medical leave, dont ask why bitches.) So we celebrated it on the 15th Feb which falls on a Sunday.

First of all, he had plans on that day, and i mean it, plans. So i tried to compromise with him about the timing for us to meet up and have the celebration. So it was set to roughly around 8pm. Why in the evening? Well, I planned a candle light dinner somewhere at Admiralty Park. Definitely, im extremely worried that this awesome plan of mine is not gonna work out. Somehow, there are some things that I expect or plan didnt turn out well. Like me surprising him at the park instead, it didnt work out. You know why? Cause the plans that he had on that day didnt really end late. So, he had nowhere to go and decided to pay me an early visit at my place at around 5+pm. I was just starting to prepare the stuffs. What I meant was, I was just beginning to cook for the candle light dinner. I was abit confused and shocked though.

So I let him in my house and instructed him to stay in my room untill Im done with everything. As usual, he is always as curious as ever. He kept coming out and sneak into the kitchen to find out what Im up to. Well, I did caught him and told him not to disturb or else the celebration will be delayed. And guess what, it did. From 8pm, it is being pushed forward to 9pm. How lovely. haha! -__-" This is cause by me taking too much time on the groceries shopping and I didnt estimated the time taken for me to cook all the dishes.

Not to let him down or myself, I continued with the plan. My mum and dad kept pestering me just to have it outsid the house. That part I was really annoyed. But in the end, my mum was being a nice nice mum that night and just let me continue with the plan as usual. hehe! thanks mama! So I packed all the stuff needed and got ready for the occassion. He was a bit carnky already. You know, he hated waiting so end up being grumpy. I tried to cheer him up a bit though along our way to the park. But somehow Im pretty sure that this surprise will perk him up. :)

We've reach the designated area and settle down around the big pond area, the one that is nearer to Sakura. The park had wooden benches that has table attached. So I set up the dinner without him looking at the surprise. I told him to turn his back on the table and play his PSP while I set up the surprise. I was damn anxious to see how he reacted after I let out the surprise. Before that, I did tell him that we're going to have a dinner outside but he didnt know how we're going to have it.

So after the final touches. I told him to turn around. And to my accord, Im happy with the way he reacted. He was put to silent. He was speechless. I can see a smile on his face form ear to ear. He said this to me, " Eh thanks alot sayang... no one has ever done this to me in my entire life. How sweet of you sayang...." And he kept smiling in shock. Im happy and relieved that all my hard work and effort has paid off. And yes, the surprise did perk him up. And part of the reason for him being a grumpy man before the surprise is because he was too hungry. After he'd seen the food that I prepared for us, he cant wait to dig in. hahaha!

His surprised face. (he looks a bit more like trying to get all the infos in his brain slolwly.)

So here's the list of food that I've prepared for him:

1. Sphagetti Bolognese with Fried Beef Balls (main dish)

2. Strawberry Pudding topped with Chocolate syrup (dessert 1)

3. Baked Bananas in Cinammon juice with Berries bliss yoghurt (dessert 2)

4. Grapetiser sparkling water (act as a wine. hehe!)

I hope this would be the most memorable day for you in our entire 6 months of relationship together. Who knows in near future, there are even more bigger surprises. So there is something to look forward to. I hope you love it my dear. And thank you so much for the gift (an Eeyore to replace my dirtied Pooh bear. hahaha!) you get me. I appreciate it alot!! :D

p.s: I hope you love the song that I sang made specially for you. Will upload it soon here. :)

p.p.s: We dont really celebrate Valentine's day if you people were wondering.

p.p.p.s: I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH MY DEAREST BOYFY! (since 17.08.08)

till my next post lovely people.

Adios!! :)

2009-02-10T22:11:00.010+08:00

You might be surprised that ive updated this page right here. Been really busy with work and wutsoever other commitments. So here I am to update.Well, obviously still busy with work and all. But I do still have time to be in gigs. My band just had our gig last saturday at The Gossip pub at Parklane. It went alright eventhough so many things screwed up at the last minute. The crowd was okay lah. Not much to say but maybe I'll upload some of the videos from the gig some other time, when Im damn free okay.

The rest of the things in life went quite okay. Not much to say. Eversince I start this job there's nothing much to say about a day of my life cause I spent most of the time in work and after work back at home resting and my time spend with love and friends is very very damn limited. I need some catching up you know. But nevermind, it will come naturally one day, I hope.

Me and love have been going stronger as the days past. It is amazing to think back at how our love grew. Im please with what I have now. And thankful to have him in my life. The ups and downs we go through is all worth while as it brings us closer and understands each other more. I'll promise to be with you through these obstacles. I love you so much dear. :)

Last sunday we spend the whole day together. We had dinner and went shopping plus do some catching up and be closer with each other. We ate at Thai Express@ Plaza Singapura, the one where Yana is working at. I had so much fun that day eventhough we were so lethargic after all the walking. I realised something about us, after all the times and days we spend together and eversince the day we were attached, we didnt catch a movie together. Well, there is intentions of catching a movie but we ended up doing some other things. Dear boyfriend, I hope this valentine we could do that okay? *this is a hint for you lah begok!* hahaha! Oh yesssss, this year's valentine will be my first valentine celebrating it with my dear love. Let's see what he is up to. But still I have not yet to decide what to do on that day for him. Nevermind, I'll get through this soon. Hehe!

Till my next post. Take care people!
xoxo

2009-01-24T21:00:00.007+08:00

Im sick of getting sick. I mean it. I'd prolly let myself die in my room with doors close and locked up with chains of smoke alluring around me giving me power in the inner side of me. Just let this disease rolls and tumbles in my already weak body. How ironic I can be? I just love this disease conquering the inner part of me. I desire for this even when the slightest hazard that brings me is stated clearly, still it wouldn't change my mind of owning this disease. I cant help my helpless self because Im freaking helpless. Maybe I needed more care and attention from love ones. A desire of being cared for and loved. Help me kick this habit will you?

2009-01-04T16:45:00.003+08:00

Pretty much nothing to say about this new year of mine. Last year wasn't much of a blast but is well said alright. Unlike those shits that happen, I'll give a big WHATEVER. Its done and over so yeah. *flicks hair* I know its kinda late to wish all of you this, but wutsoever damn fuck i care, HAPPY NEW YEAR BALLS OF BITCHES! *grinnnnsssss* I had fun with all of you who were always with me 24/7. I appreciate and lovesssssssssssssssss the things we do together. Those late night slacking and whatever things that makes me want more of it this year. Leave the bad behind and bring forward our happiest moments. Love all you bitches!

Apparently, eventhough I know Im gonna be jammed pack with loads of work this year, Im pretty sure I'll always find time to have fun, peace, love, sex, bitching and wutsoever that excites me with all of you okay? This 2009 will hopefully turn out well for me. With me, starting a career is one scary path Im afraid to go through. I know right. So yeahh. I just hope for the best and follows the flow. Play my game well. :)

Im back on hiatus for today before it gets..... busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy.busy

with..................................................... irritating kids but yet still adorable. i love them. heeee.

till my next entry. hell balls it will take weeks.

2008-12-15T01:14:00.003+08:00

Somehow I felt a little sense of regret today. wth okay.

Hint: My hold head felt so super flat. And I mean it. Literally.

2008-12-12T20:53:00.012+08:00

Have been busy lately. So there will be less updates lately. And partly the reason is because Im working. Yes, finally after so long I got myself a stable job that would most prolly support myself. Im a full time child care teacher at Bright Kids Child Care Centre at Punggol. Yes, I know its far. But I just take the risk and didnt want the chance to slip away. Partly the reason why I accepted this job because the Principal there offered me an Early Childhood course that the company would fully sponser. Isn't that awesome. I've been yearning to get into this field since years. Even before I get my ass in that never ending stress school. That useless NAFA. And I have realised that now I cant be the usual Shekyn I use to be because Im no more a young adult that always have fun out of everything in my life. I am now a career woman. To be more specific Im a teacher that has to set good examples for those small kids that I will help them grow to a good person. I hope things would work out for me this time. I dont want to see myself fall again. I swear. All the best for myself. And with the support, faith and guidence from both my parents and my dearest Anwar, I hope things goes smoothly. Insya'allah. Amin.

This is Keira Marie Calely. She is a Bright Kid and an intelligent one too. She is also sometimes cheeky as she likes to wink her eyes at me when I look at her at the corner of my eye. She loves it when i kiss her cheek and tie up her hair and sings ABC with her with funny facial expressions. She will get all hyper. And everytime her dad picks her up she will hug me tightly and kiss me and say "Dora going home Teacher!" and keeps waving her cute small hands at me. She calls herself Dora. She's the best so far. Together with Hazel Ong. Will get a photo of Hazel Ong soon. :)

And before I forgot, yesterday after work I went to meet Karem and Yana at Civic. And on my way there, I bumped into Azlan. He asked me to tag along to go meet Iman and Faisal at the McDonalds at Civic. I was ecstatic to hear that I would finally meet the both of them after so long. So yeah, we proceed and joyfully upon meeting, Iman hugged me like a small sister to a big brother and I smiled from ear to ear. And as usual, Faisal the irritating ass down-syndrome kid would always slap me and mess up my hair. I kinda miss that anyway. So yeah we chat and did some catching up. And Im so sorry for Iman after what I heard. Hold on tight dood. There's always a reason why things happen. Don't give up on life okay. Remember that all of us, your best bandmates will always be there to support and love you. :) Afterwards, Faz and my dearest boyfriend came and join us. We hang out till about 12+ and went off. Boyfriend came home with me and we slept like nobody's business. I dont know why nowadays I tend to get tired easily. And yes partly because of my period. Menstruation cramps are killing me!! uurgghhh... okay I guess that's about it. Till my next update. take care readers! :)

One more thing, I dont know what you people are trying to prove anyway. Maybe there is still this fear in you about me. What I know I dont even like the thought of me having another argument with this kind of people. It's not gonna end and I want to be ignorant. Because I know these brainless morons have nothing better to do in their sad life. Im sorry if we made you mad and jealous cause all I know others are happy with the way we are. Go fly kite okay. Fuck you cause this is awesomely about us. UP YOURS!

Just so you know

2008-11-26T00:30:00.004+08:00

I felt useless again. You're making things worse for me. You wanted to show you care but that's the wrong way. After hanging up, I cried like fuck because Im hurt and pissed like fuck. All along you thought Im ignorant? Well, I wish I was now, after what you pull me into. You triggered this and now you can easily let this off. Do whatever you want for now. And most prolly you're unhappy with me now. Yes, Im being selfless. Why, because all along I hate what Im feeling. I hate being useless. Did you see me try? Yes you did. But why you're doing this? Have I not done enough for you. Please think through this. I know your intentions are good but I cant accept the fact that you're making me feel useless. I hate that fucking word. I want to be ignorant for now. Please just forgive me for not being myself previously. I just hate that feeling. It slowly eats me up on the inside. For one second, I just hope that everything around me just shuts down and dies off. Im really sorry for doing that to you previously. I hope I can make you happy in future. Not for you but for myself. Because at the end of the story, I know that you know, the only person that I can truly rely on is myself with your guidence along side. Im trying my best to boost up mentally with less denial of things around me. Im truly sorry and you know I didnt mean to say that to you. You know, no matter what I will always love you. I hope you knew. I just love you.

2008-11-19T14:15:00.005+08:00

Lollipop -Framing HanleyEnjoy this video people. I kinda miss the hardcore side of me. eeeeeyarghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!And American do party well huh.I love partays!!!

2008-11-18T03:28:00.006+08:00

Previously, on the phone with him.....

Me: Am I an awesome girlfriend?
Boyfriend: No. You're not awful at all.
Me: I said awesome dumbass!
Boyfriend: Is it? hahahahaha! wth.

Moral of the story: No matter how bad your sound system is you're still the best dumbass I ever had. Only at times I feel like choking you. I ♥ You Like Fuck. heh.

Miss Leong/ Mrs Tan Wedding and Uncle's Wedding.

2008-11-17T16:24:00.020+08:00

Here's the update on Miss Leong or should I say Mrs Tan's wedding. So I'll let the photos do the talking because Im too bum up to type out a whole chunk of words here. How pathetic. Congrats to Mrs Tan and hubby. May you have a blissful marriage ahead okay. Make lotsa babies!! :)

And not forgetting my promise on my updates on my Uncle's solemnization ceremony.

I'll just post photos of the event. And again I dont feel like typing a whole chunk of words here.

So yeah.

2008-11-17T01:31:00.015+08:00

This is what happen few hours ago.......

★S H E K Y N is [ xprettyxvulgarx ] says:
QAYUM!!!

★S H E K Y N is [ xprettyxvulgarx ] says:

LOL!

★S H E K Y N is [ xprettyxvulgarx ] says:
aku rindu kao!!!

always trying to grab something we can never have says:
HAHAH awww so sweett. aku pun rindu kau.

I miss this idiot name Abdul Qayum! I miss your crap! I miss your whining about how the traffic sucks every morning. I miss how you always complain about your GF. I miss your stories about ur working experience in Toys 'r' Us. I miss eating chicken rice with you at Ah Mei Cafe. I miss going to Art Friend and wondering around deciding whether to buy that fucking expensive Copic markers. I miss bitching with you about that group of "Mean Girls". I miss the times when you accompanied me go for my smoke breaks. I miss the times when we purposely try to get a chance to check out on Joe, hahaha! knn lah Qayum. I miss the times when we played HP BOMB when we get bored of our lesson and even while waiting for our assesment time. I miss calling you kental and you calling me kental. I miss the times when we pretended to be gay and you assume that Joe is yours and Anyi is mine. wth! I miss hearing you talk about bikes and how you wish that you can marry an SP. I miss every single stupid, dumb, retarded, obnoxious thing we've done together. I just miss you lah kimice! okay that's all. heh.

Well, obviously the most that Im missing right now is of course none other than my dearest dinosaur who is in camp right now. I've not been seeing him roughly about 4 days straight. And one big reason for this is he's under confinment for 1 week. knnbccb. hell balls im so gonna rot at home up till Thursday. haishh. I will damn right run to him and jump on him and hug him tightly and never let go upon meeting him. I cant wait to meet you up. Dear God, please let the days pass by quickly as can be without realising it. Pretty pleaseeeeeee......... with a cherry on top. hehe. Reality check, it is sooooo not gonna happen. Bahhhhhh. Kay bye. and I love you dear. and God too. *wink* ( my head facing upwards )
By the way, Happy 3rd Monthsary my baby dinosaur! I love you so so much and I miss you so so so so much lah kimice! Take care in camp during your bloody SOL. I can see that serving NS still sucks for every man in Singapore. kanasai uh!

2008-11-14T23:07:00.003+08:00

So now who should we blame. Me or you?
I just cant control my angst.
Im sorry.
Its just how things work for me.
Let me cool down and we shall talk NICELY.
And I gave up not because Im a loser.
Its just too hard too handle.
Ive tried okay.
Im really sorry if I let you down dear.
But the more you do that, the more you make things worse for myself.
I thought you should be the one encouraging me.
Not making me feel more useless.
Once again, Im sorry if Im not being myself today.
I love you. I wish you knew.

2008-11-14T17:55:00.005+08:00

At 3.43pm.

Amin and myself were having fun webcaming.

As time pass by, he got so tired and slept at 5.16pm.

I didnt notice myself as I was too busy surfing the net.

But guess what he left his webcam on.

So I decided to do something about it.

hahahaha!

excuse me Amin.

But i cant help watching you being over the moon. hehehe!

im sorry. mind us readers. :)

2008-11-14T17:04:00.007+08:00

Im soooooo craving for ice-creams!!!!! Anyone care to buy me all of this!!!! Banana split would be even nicer and awesome!!! Sometimes i wonder what would the world be without them? They're the stress-killer and you dont have to make an effort just eating them. They're just happy happy food that makes you a happy happy human being!! :)

2008-11-08T01:55:00.011+08:00

Holla Mualla Kualla pakai tuala basah! ( wet towel ) This would be an update about things that you most prolly missed. Only for this post, I'll be typical for a moment to update about my daily life. Update about yesterday, yesterday yesterday, yesterday yesterday yesterday and even the future. Im a psychic you know. ( grabbing right breast just like the blonde from Mean Girls, i forget her name btw. )

This is a video of Ella, my tiny irritating cat. Feeling syiok. Haha!! Watch it. Its an update for today.

Next stop, I know this would be the most latest update ever, but still im making an effort to upload videos of this event we had recently. Karem's birthday party went well. Not really as per plan. The cake turn out to be okay. We made him a Strawberry cake. Filled with strawberries, strawberry flavoured Pocky, chocolate chips, a type of nut ( idk what's the specific name for it but in malay is kacang gajus. haha! ) and decorated with honeystars and all of the ingredients above. We made him waited for like half a day. And he thought that all of us seriously forgotten about his birthday. But afterall, it's not ur suckiest 19th birthday ever okay. And mind you, you only have one 19th birthday okay. So ur msg was gramatically corrected here. :) So guys, below are the videos of his birthday party we held for im. Enjoy his sabo-ing video. Look at how sissy he is. MInd you Karem. heh! :)

And now, for the upcoming plans for later. Early in the morning, Im following Love to Bedok and CCK to take his crumpler bag that he bought from Ebay. After that hang out till ard 4+ and head home w/o him to attend my Uncle's wedding. At last he is settling down. And I hope the event later in the evening would most definitely excites me. Cause you know Im not really interested in turning up for events like this. Haha! But for the sake of my Uncle, i'll be most delighted to attend to show support. :) I hope I can get some snapshots of the ceremony later. So will be updating soon. If im not lazy enough. :)

My Obsession. and My World. :)

Cheerios!

2008-11-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

Yesssss! Its Lil Demon in the house!!

He has fucking mad skills people!!

So let him blow your mind!

Btw, just foward it to 1.50min.

That dood has alot to talk.

and yess more of it below! :)

okay this is what i can bring out to the table for now.

ADIOS SUCKERS!!!!

too close to comfort. and im loving it.

2008-11-04T03:59:00.013+08:00

"We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
This is comfort of my thoughts.

"A situation that seemed like a problem may actually be a blessing in disguise."

Okay. Let my mind dwell around about the above statement. Mind me dear readers. I just dont feel like myself these days. I dont know why. Is it just me or the world? It spun me around thinking what I want in life. Seriously, I dont know where my future is. Till now, I cant decide for myself. But eversince you came to my life, you brought the whole world to me. You made me feel all Superhuman again. Ive learn how to see through myself and remember who I use to be. It's unbelievable what you could do to make me feel all Superhuman. Every problem is put off from my shoulder because there's your love within me. I just feel so Superhuman. Thanks dear. That's all. :)

Now for the updates:

- i will most prolly be working in a child care center. sorry. i guess i wont work well with coffee. and thanks Naz btw.

-always financially not stable.

-mum and dad seems to be very supportive these few days.

-my sister brought back another cat and yes my mum loves it so we'll be having another addition to the family. Welcome dear kitty. ( have not thought of a suitable name for it )

-plans to put away all grudges on anyone. And those haters who still have issues with me, sorry, you mess with the wrong person. im being ignorant here. so stop wasting your time cause it will never happen. to whoever it may concern lah.

-plans to be more loving, caring, understanding, patience, co-operative to You. I'll try to be a good listener, a place for comfort when in need, a shoulder to cry on and whatsoever in the love list. My love for you is unconditional. and i mean it.

-for now my only weakness is You. cause you make me feel all Superhuman. heh. :)

That's all for now. Till my next post people. :)

Up Yours!!

2008-10-23T15:59:00.005+08:00

This entry im posting is definitely to beat the shit of your tiny pea brain that you're definitely messing with the wrong person. You did not just step onto the wrong wire girl! Well, if you are aware, what you're doing now will never make me re-contemplate on things going around me. Im happy with what i have now so be it. If you are trying to destroy us, it's not gonna happen gril. I know what you are up to. I have the trust on us and obviously ur plan is not working out. For once, stop at whatever you're doing or planning. You're just wasting your time. Think deeply, what is your benefit of doing such things. I know you have the right to do whatever it takes to be back on track with him. He has obviously been through alot before and now you're adding fuel again into the fire. Stop and think, you are so self-centered dear girl. Can you at least for once try to think upon others. Their feelings and whatsoever. Are you so pissed to see others leading a happy life. He never once mention that he is piss when you've found someone new after him. If you're happy so be it. Just let others be happy with what they have in life. Dont you know that how much you pissed me off, I'll never have bad intentions against you. Cause i know its stupid. I just couldn't be bothered dear girl. You were always the one who start the fire. You know why I didnt bother you whenever you diss bout me, cause it's plain stupid. I dont entertain shits like that. Its plain dumb you see dear girl. I dont get the idea of you dissing me when all along you didnt know me at all. I guess you were just filled with fear just knowing that Im the person who he loves more. Yes, it is damn right difficult for him to erase his past because of one major reason. I shall not elaborate more on that part cause you didnt want the whole world to know right. He has every right to make his own decision and by that he has choosen to be with me and to let you go. I know it's difficult for you too, but reality check, he is done with you. And now im here with him to help him move on and try not to get back to the past. And with your disturbance, think again, you're making us stronger. Try to shake things out from us. It's not gonna happen. So the idea of me posting this entry is to give you a lil touch of what i am. Its a small warning for you and to make you think again at whatever you're planning to do ahead. If you think it is good for you so be it. We'll never gonna fall for that. Up yours!!

Hari Raya 2008.

2008-10-22T03:29:00.035+08:00

Let's just let zeee photos do zeee talking aye.

Nisa, you're just plain retard. :)

And again Nisa. Haha!

REALITY CHECK.

IM JUST PLAIN LAZY TO UPDATE THIS BLOG OF MINE!!

TILL THEN, I SHALL SEE YOU WHEN I SEE YOU.

R.I.P Dear Shekyn.

HEH!

Happy Birthday Bubu!

2008-10-14T23:43:00.009+08:00

I would like to wish my beloved boy a Happy 19th Birthday! I love you Bubu! heeeeee. :) But too bad, we cant meet up on his special day. He had to do guard duty. Pfft! nvm. good for him. earn some extra allowance. Anyways, i baked him a cake. Good effort he said. He appreciates it. Thank god. Heeee... And he says its nice although the whip cream that was hand made by me wasn't really like whip cream. I did try right. And most importantly it was made with a simple touch of my love towards him. I love you dear..... I hope you love the surprise. The cake. The melting of the candles. haha! and of course the presents that I gave you. It was all worth waiting for. Im sorry I kept you waiting. :) and pleaseeee dear do not even think of buying me the laptop bag that cost almost half of your monthly pay. Its plain stupid. I jus need your assurance that you'll love me okay dear? heeeeee :) [ yucks I sound soo cheezy! ]

FYI, I celebrated his birthday 2 days in advance and I blog it a few minutes before his birthday ends. Wth! So much of a cute girlfriend you have dear Bubu. :) heehee.... Ily.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUQMAN~

2008-09-27T06:55:00.003+08:00

I want to make a shout out to my wonderfool and awwwwwww-some friend here.........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LUQMAN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BITCH!!!

May God bless you with his love today and forever.

Enjoy your special day okay?

For now, you shall be upgraded to an old whore.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, you old WHORE!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahahaaha!!!

2008-09-13T00:49:00.004+08:00

It's like moving mountains...

But I keep climbing and hoping things would change

And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away

It's like moving mountains...

Well baby why you just leave me

Just leave me be

Just leave me

Just leave me be

Why you just leave me

Just leave me be

Why you just leave me

Just leave me be oh oh ohhh

p.s: somethings are left unsaid, unwritten. the past will never fade. deep down i know.

Some Awesome Shit of Artwork!

2008-09-09T01:55:00.003+08:00

The ability to comprehend and to understand the form of Street Art!This is in fact GREAT INTELLIGENCE.Think of how they produce this brilliant work.I am stoked to think of it.Imagine. Think. Explore.Wonder for all I care.Minutes. Hours. Days. Months.Or even Years.Sky is your limit.Watcha waiting for, get into your creative channel.Kay go! p.s: do they even get fine or arrested for doing this?

Just so you know.

2008-09-02T16:25:00.005+08:00

I dont understand myself. I dont know what I want in life. Im confused. I try to work things out in my life but in the end Im not happy with what Im doing. Yes, I did try to work things out, but would you even like it if you're doing things that you feel unhappy and uncomfortable about it. To put others before myself, to think of their feelings before I think of mine. But now not anymore. I cant stand this. What about my feelings. All along I try to make them happy but what about me? Am I happy with what Im going through now. I force myself to accept this. I dont wish to elaborate more. Its eating me up slowly on the inside. No one understands what Im going through now. Im useless. Im nothing for now. Bye.

P.S: Im really sorry if I let you down this time. I really cant take this anymore. My mind is not at ease thinking about it. Im really sorry. I hope you understand what Im going through dear.

2008-08-27T10:54:00.005+08:00

He says if I fail in school, means I fail in our relationship. Haishhhhh..........

Okay. Im at the ending point of just breaking down and stop schooling. I really cant take the work load from my assignments. I hate everything about school. Everythings a bitch in school. There's too little time and alot to be done. Im giving up. But what about the fees my dad pay for me. What about everything else that my parents did for me just for school. This laptop. Jeeeezzzzz..... How am I gonna get this shit done? I dont want to dissapoint them you see. Im in this alone. No one knows what im going through in school. Like i say, everythings a bitch in school. Literally! Be it with friends, lecturer, and wutsoever shit! There's no motivation in school. Life's a bitch! I need to cry this shit out. Im over stress. I think too much and I think my stupid brain is gonna blow up soon. How??? I need motivation. I want to start from scratch. My GPA sucks big time okay. People can easily say you have one more year to go and you're done. Yeahh right..... with all the fucked up grades upon graduation where would I go? bitch.

HOW I WISH I COULD STOP THE TIME AND FINISH UP THIS SHITS!!! GOD HELP ME!!!

2008-08-21T01:46:00.004+08:00

Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it.

ONE THING FOR SURE, I FUCKING NEED TIME OUT FROM SCHOOL BITCH!!

God help me! I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school!

I need my rest dood. I need to hibernate. I need time off dood!

You know what, now that school have been digging up my time too much I dont even have the time to wash my own socks! FTW uh!! So this is partly the reason why I always wear flip flops now.

Can i just drop out from school and work full time and earn balls of money??

Anyway, my school is looking for volunteers to be a Tourism Ambassador for the F1 thingy.I want to volunteer but Qayum think it's a waste of time cause we're not paid.

And why do they call it volunteer sia Qayum?! hahaha!

Sometimes i feel like im not good enough for you. Idk why i feel that way.

2008-08-19T02:01:00.004+08:00

First and for most, Im sad to announce that im no longer single. Haha! Well, I shouldn't be announcing this but its for those stalker who somewhat find something interesting about my life. Be it whatever reason there is that benefits you of being a big "KAYPOKIA!" or whatsoever shit, you should think twice of judging me okay. Who eat cilli feel like babi! I shall not elaborate this further as it's just a waste of energy and time to talk about stupid patty things.

Well, I should be panic-ing right now cause i have tons of assignments to be done but im blogging happily. Shekyn = chill ah bedah. kay mepek. Haha! I dont know why but whenever im with you I forget about all the little things that I should be worrying about like i use to previously. Whenever you're here with me, im flying! :)

I just want to let you know that i was touched by the convo we had just now. I've never seen or heard you talk like a grown man. Yess, you've been through shits and pain. Im feeling you. I was soooo sad to hear how you suffered through out the 5 yrs of me being MIA. Im sorry that I wasn't there for you when the world came crashing down on you. I pity you alot. And for you to accept my apology, I'll do anything to make you happier. To see you smile is the simplest love I can get from you. I'll walk you through the path of pain and agony you had. I'll be there for you through thick and thin. I dont ask for more. Just sincere love and for you to cherish it too. I appreciate every single thing you did for me. You woken me up dear. You made me realised that every single thing in life should be treasured and not to neglect it. I learn from your mistakes and experiences. You've been through alot. I hope by me being there for you every single second would make you feel better than ever. I want to make you special in many ways. I want to make you feel that you are not useless to the world. Don't blame yourself on the shits that happened around you. Like you said, once a friend told you that the reason you're going through this is because God loves you. I strongly put those words in thought and it really woken me up. I cant put all my feelings right now in words. There's still some parts that i couldn't spell it out for you. I just hope that you will be able to go through your pain slowly and throw all the past behind you when I walk you out through this phase of time. I love you so much dear. I'll try my best not to dissapoint you in any way.

I shall end my entry now and get back to my assignments that will forever be piling up! Pffffft! and guess what, school is starting in less than 7 hours and i have not much rest. I have to wake up early cause Budak Besar will be going off for camp later so I have to be awake to send him off. ( btw, his sleeping at my living room right now. poor him. his lethargic and sick. and must i tell you kids this. not necessary. i know. ) And yesss im working 2mrw. Wahhhhpiang! Okay Shekyn you got to stop your whining now.............

Adios kids!!

2008-08-16T02:36:00.003+08:00

YEAHHHHH BABEHHHHHHH!!
FINALLY YOU CALLED, YOU MANWHORE!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUDAK BESAR!!!!!
MUAHHHHXXX!!!!
=X

p.s: btw that's my design. nice? :)

2008-08-16T02:26:00.006+08:00

i am waiting. still waiting. waitingggggggggg. i am still waiting.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
you, biler nak kol nie?? dah kojol ke??
imy so much kimice!

waiting, waiting, waiting, i am still fucking waiting.................

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! im out of my mind.

* What is pleasure and torture?*

-Pleasure is when im thinking of you when you're not around.

-Torture is when i think too much of you when you're not around.

BUDAK BESAR IMY SO MUCH CAN? =X

2008-08-13T02:47:00.005+08:00

Okay kids. Not much to be updated anyway. Cause so far nothing amuse me that much these days. Well, i was on MC at the beginning of the week and the kind doctor gave me two days MC. Wooohooo!! Macam tahu je aku nak spend more time ngan Budak Besar. kay mepek. So lately, im beginning to hate school more and more. After what Qayum told me just now about our modules, I FUCKING HATE SCHOOL. I feel like dropping out. But what will my parents say.... School sucks big time dood! How i wish my mum and dad were a millionaire that owes their own Villa or whatever shit they call it and has their own land. I would be happily and peacefully sleeping now in bed with no worries on this freaking assignment im doing now! Bitch. And yessss thanks to my old lappy that sucks ass now i have to only survive with Photoshop and InDesign. FTW! I need my Adobe Illustrator badly. Ive been married to that thing since forever man. The most important source in my life is no longer with me. Illustrator is the sex sia.... Common man! Okay whatever. I know i should stop whining about how life sucks.

So here's the thing, I think i have thought through deep enough. I want to be with you. But we shall wait for the right and perfect timing. Anyways, im really happy that you could be the one that listens to my heart. And I hope that you are happy whenever Im there for you. You know what, Im addicted to you. And i hope you're addicted to me too. Haha! I hope I did give you the assurance that I would make you start afresh and stick with you through thick and thin and love you unconditionally. Honestly, deep down inside, I was touch with what you say to me last evening. The way you look me in the eyes and truthfully say to me those lovely three words, 'I Love You'. I shall not forget that moment. You made me fly! Haha! Ily too Budak Besar. And please for God's sake, do not bring up an unnecessary matter again okay dear. I know you wanted to push that off your chest but that was wrong dear. I just needed your trust okay. You will always be my priority. Plus stop being so negative about things around you. You will be surprised at how a little bit of positive thinking will turn the tide and make things fall into place. Stop making excuses not to move forward. Move forward with me kay dear. I cant promise you the best for now, but Im sure my heart tells it all. That you were the one. So yeahh..... :)

Till my next entry......

I dont want it to end.

2008-08-09T12:38:00.005+08:00

What am I gonna say, when you make me feel this way.
I just mmmmmmmmmmmmmm................................

I had an awesome night yesterday eventhough at the end of the day there were some misunderstandings between us. So i did spend the whole day with Budak Besar. We went to Marina Square to get our dinner done at Pizza Hut then headed to Esplanade. We sat behind the newly constructed open stage near the waterfront. The weather was awesome. It's so perfectly windy. Together with the wonderful music performed by the live band. They were awesome. The songs are mostly acoustic and they happen to play one of my favourite tunes, Im Yours by Jason Mraz. It was soooo sweet when they started playing that song, we look at each other and smiled at each other and we cuddled up in each other arms. Awwwwww. Honestly we didnt want the night to end. Ive never felt so happy like this in my previous relationship. I dont want to mention names.

Budak Besar, are you already in your comfort zone when you are with me? Because i do. And after the fight yesterday, it did hurt a lil and i was angry. So what does that mean? Budak Kecik sayang ama Budak Besar dei! But honestly, I still think its too fast. Like i say to you, you will just be my 'Manwhore' for now. hohoho! not. I will be the one sticking to you through thick and thin kay. Budak Besar selalu ada banyak problem eh. Tak pe Budak Kecik help kay. :)

Thank you Budak Besar!! :)

By the way. Happy Birthday Lah Kimice! I mean Singapore. :)

2008-08-05T02:20:00.003+08:00

I have someone in mind.
Im not too sure about this.
I don't know where we're heading to.
Take it slow dear. I think we're moving fast.

Don't push it.

Thank god im leaving the lab soon.

2008-07-29T16:43:00.007+08:00

Listening to: A group of idiots shouting and swearing at each other. They're fucking playing Dota!Whatever it's spell. Bunch of faggots.

Where: In school's computer lab. Yes, those idiots are abusing the free usage of the comps. I'll prolly shaft these keyboards up their ass. Especially that Thai jerk.
Can't you just shut the hell up you mofo!

This is a fast post. Im in school doing my research on my Flash assignment. Well, i should be doing my research back at home but under circumstances of the sucks ass internet connection back at home I had to stay a lil while in school to get all my research done. Yes, exactly im not a Superwoman nor a Wonderwoman. I cant produce good work without inspiration. Honestly, i did try getting inspiration from my only source, this thing called 'The Magazine' which i thought might be able to give me some shit ass ideas for my Flash assignment. It turn out to be endless browsing of the latest trends. Hah!

Okay i'll be leaving soon. Meeting Amyn and Isk at Wdl point.
Im hungry. All i had was Nutri Soy that my dad bought for mr this morning. :(

And kids i shall update everything once my internet is okay.
Together with the lappy. Such a whore. Everything just sucks.

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Adios!

[ this is some kind of a secret message. NOT! i just want my post to look longer. :) ]

Holiday is over.

2008-07-21T01:33:00.004+08:00

SCHOOL IS STARTING IN ABOUT LESS THAN 7 HOURS!!!

THIS IS KIMICESIAN UH!!!!!!!!

BYE UH! IM STILL IN HOLIDAY MOOD!!

KIMICE YOU ALL! SCHOOL IS BORING!

SCREW ALL OF YOU WHO ARE STILL SCHOOLING!

DROP OUT FROM SCHOOL YOU MORONS!

p.s: is there a need for me to say all this right? i noe. i just can't accept the fact that 2mrw im schooling okay. so i need to whine about it. pffffft!

2008-07-18T00:21:00.005+08:00

This will be a short one.

Im sorry for your lost. I know it will be hard on you. Just be strong kay? I know I may not be the one to be there for you but somehow the word 'Friends' will be the one sticking on us through no matter what we've been through. I'll pray for him. And wish you well. God loves him more and Im pretty sure he will be in a safer place up there. Personally, how i wish I could be your crying shoulder as I can feel your grief. But please don't be too hard on this. Im sure he don't want to see you sad. You can go through this. Slowly kay.... Im sorry for not being there for you and your sister. From the bottom of my heart.

This post will be dedicated to Fairul Edham Hirdayat and family.

2008-07-16T23:57:00.004+08:00

Someone is trying to irritate me.

Sorry it didn't work on me.

Thanks for the huge effort.

( sneering it on your face please)

+spits. im-always-Shekyn-thewhore+

not much of a marvel.

2008-07-16T19:17:00.005+08:00

Dang! my holidays are soon gonna be over. Like in less than one week.
and soon tons of assignments will be slapping my ass off.
I should be ready for this. I have too.

And i hope i could do well this time round. I do not want to promise anything.

Just an obvious progress on my work and I would be a happy human being.

And yes i might say that this time round my class time-table is quite flexible.

They are somwhat i say, " FAIR AND SQUARE".

Here, take a look at it.

http://studentnet.nafa.edu.sg/_deptDesignMedia/timetable/VC_2B.pdf

But still im having doubts to still continue working or not.

Cause obviously 2nd year in my Diploma is definitely gonna be a pain in my ass. a lot!

And i most prolly don't have the time to earn my own

money because of the overloading assignments.

I still want to have extra allowance, apart from my parents. LAWL!

Let's just see how things goes.

Okay kids. Here's the update on my self-being.

Well, I am able to control my feelings now.

I am able to handle situation easier.

I am able to face the reality eventhough life's such a whore.

The key to all of this is POSITIVE THINKING.

Yes, im tired of always thinking "What if....." blah blah blah.

Cause it will never come to an end. And it irks me out everytime.

Whatever happens, it happens for a reason.

And yess, for some people, whatever shit happens to me,

it is not a deserved penalty of retribution, cunt faces!

Is just how things and life goes. Im not saying that im not a loser.

I do admit at times Im a big time loser, with such situation.

It's like a cycle. Im sure all of you have been through shits in life.

Well, here's mine. And of course I will deal with it slowly.

You got to make a right choice or right move to stay in the game.

Granted that i do have to take the risk, getting hurt still sucks ass.

I will now end my entry with this conclusion,

LIFE IS A NEVER-ENDING STORY.

AND

NEVER-ENDING IS A LIFE STORY.

Did you eat a bowl of stupid for breakfast?

2008-07-14T20:29:00.005+08:00

Well simple, the best way to describe yesterday(13th July) is.............................................

EVERYTHING JUST SUCKS ASSSSSSSSS!

BUNCH OF WUSSIESSS!

UP YOURS!

PISSES ON ALL OF YOU!!

People like you are the reason we have middle fingers.

SO FUCK YOU!

+spits. im-Shekyn-thewhore+

I want to know what this means.

2008-07-13T03:09:00.016+08:00

This is an update about 12.07.08.

So here's the main dish for the day.....................

"THAT WAS A SPLENDID SHOW YOU PUT UP JUST NOW!"

Thank you for making me feel useless around you.

Im so angry at myself.

Thanks alot!

I wish I never knew you.

Im sick and tired of always being in this kind of state.

I thought you'd come around when I ignored you.

There's nothing in this world could describe how you mean to me.

But now I see, your selfishness is obvious.

You're a heartbreaker. I swear you are.

Can you stop making me fall apart.

I may not be the one you're looking for.

My feelings may not be noticeable.

But I know, deep down inside you, you knew it all along.

Yes you do. Old flames come around.

All the pain and tears I cried,

Still im never letting this go.

My guilty concious whispered in to give up on you.

But no, my heart still harden and ignored.

Cause my heart knows the best.

If I had my way, I'd never get over you.

But you're the only one,I'd be with till the end.

I will endure and have patience.

I try to make things work.

I try to beieve in this.

I wish you knew.

I wish you care.

Cause I'm in love with you.

Im not looking forward for tomorrow.

Cause it will not change.

+spits.im-Shekyn-thewhore+

2008-07-10T23:40:00.009+08:00

Oh hello there!

Today (as in 10th July) is mummy's birthday. And she is.... ( rolling eyes while counting in my mind ) to be honest im not too sure how old is she. Haha! I know. What kind of a daughter am i. Most prolly she's in her early 50's. Sounds young right. not! Happy Birthday Mama! Eventhough your nagging sounds horibble and unpleasant to my ears i will still love you. Sweeeeeeeeeeeet.

Lately, i've discovered that i've been having this sort of PMS attitude. Idk why. I've been all rowdy about some little things. I get too sensetive over certain things people mention or say to me. I have no mood for anything. I think it's mood swings. I felt like a disorderly human being lately. I just feel like lying on my bed and stare blankly at the ceiling with no idea what to do next. I feel restless. All the negative feelings is in me. Im so facing mood problems. Or is it maybe when im always at home i get too paranoid. I rarely stayed at home. Seriously. So maybe that's the reason. Pffft! Whatever.

I went to the nearest 7-11 this late afternoon and you know who i met, MILKY BAR! =O hahaha! OMG! I sooooo want to indulge on that please. The craving is building up already. Oh gosh, im so getting it soon. And yes the price went up like *poof*. The last time i had it was around $1.50 and now it's friggin $2.30 WTH CAN?! It's just a bar of nice awesome milk! hah!

See here's the thing, this Sunday, 13th July is our gig at the Arts House. Well, im so not looking fowad for it. Why? Cause our slot sucks. We will be performing when everyone is already tired. Get it? We are the last band. If im not wrong. This is catastrophically killing me and im going crazy alright. And worse Karym's not there to perform. He has NBC on that day and i don't think so he could make it. He would be too tired after all the excitement the whole day. Then who would be my bitchin partner?? Urgghhh. This is a catastrophe. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Period. I don't feel like turning up even. I hope something real good appears before the gig so i'll be able to go through that whole pathetic day. Pleaseeeeee.........Okay that's all for the day. Goodnight pathetic world.

+spits. im-Shekyn-thedork+

2008-07-10T01:07:00.003+08:00

Today's post.
Well, i most prolly would stop reading someone's blog.
The reason behind it is soo obvious.
Because fear triggered in you that you wanted to set it as private.
Well if you happen to bump into mine.
Read this clearly.
" YES. I'M A LOYAL READER OF YOUR BLOG
AND I'M A STALKER!"

Yessss be scared. You should.
Muahahaha!!
Well, basicly blogs are meant to be read.
Get it in your puny pea brain will you.
And it is already my routine.
IDK why but it's nature.
Get over it.

Enough of this. Im going crazy already.
Just go on with your life and i will happily read on.
You cunt face!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

*why am i being such an evil whore?*
who cares.
Whatever.

Anyway, things have not been doing well around me.
My job still sucks.
I want a better job with better working environment.
I want to do things that i enjoy.
That can relate to me.
Anyone can offer me the above^^
I'll be a happy human being.

School is starting and this is not good news.
One big reason is im in my 2nd year so this means more assignments.
More assignments means more sleepless nights.
More sleepless nights means bigger eye bags.
AND MORE PRESSURE!
cause my GPA sucks.
I have to work extra hard this time round to acquire more credits.
Base on my horrible results last semester, my placings can be below the average okay.
I don't want to promise myself anything.
Cause i'll end up not fullfuling it.
And i'll be dissapointed like hell.
I want to graduate with a Diploma badly.
I don't want to waste my time with lots of regets in the future.

*i want more of your support this time around.
i hope you could be there for me when im at my lowest point
doing my assigments and having problems in school.
i know and understand that you have your own things to attend to.
just be there by my side and be my listening ears to hear my
whining and complainings. it's more than enough :)
ilysm & imy!!!

okay the end. goodnight beautiful people!
now is time for bed.
so go to bed and sleep lah bodoh!
sepak kepale hotak korang baru tahu.
*peace*

+im-Shekyn-thedork+

Up yours!

2008-07-10T00:26:00.007+08:00

"erm, today is Wednesday. and you can only tie up your hair once a week. and so you pick today." - Mean Girls.

you feelin me?
hahahaha!
at your face.
big time.

Amacam? Gigi kakak baik pehhhh?

Debik muke korang baru tahu!

hahahaha!

diam uh Shekyn.

2008-07-08T19:51:00.003+08:00

This is too much already.
Im up to my head or maybe above it!
FUCK YOU AND DIE!!

You were never what i wish for!
You never bother.
You only know how to vent things on me.
You never want to know what im going through.
You never NEVER NEVER NEVER CARE!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU EVEN MORE NOW!!!
All you see in me is a pain in the ass.
All you see in me is a nuisence to you.
All you see in me is a useless person with no future.
All you see in me is a piece of shit who might as well die right now.

I HATE YOU BIG TIME!!

Im up to my head listening to you blaming me on things that i dont even know.
What's wrong with you and your stupid pea brain.
Whenever you shit about me, i have no chance to say or fight for my right.
Im always wrong. I am never correct. I am never yours that's what you wish for.

YOU DONT FUCKING CARE!!!!!!!!
Why? Cuz you dont even bother to ask me!
Your negative view on me will never fade if your heart is like a rotten shit.
Karma will return. YOU DIE AND SUFFER IN HELL!!!!!

I SWEAR TO GOD YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN!!!!

p.s: sorry for my angst. this is the only way to let it go.
at least my blog have no say bout anything i do.
FUCK YOU AND UP YOURS!!!!

Hey Ho Let's Go!

2008-07-01T01:56:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL WHO CAME FOR MY GIG ON THE 28TH!

THANKS FOR CUMYNG AND THE SUPPORT!

I HOPE YOU GUYZS ENJOY OUR PERFORMANCE!

:))

OKAY KIDS.

My upcoming plans for the rez of this week.

1.) Get Qayum's present cuz my pay is in. :)

2.) Go for school's speech day rehearsal.

3.) Jamming i guess

(upcoming gig on 13 July, ULTRASOUND gig @ Arts haus. if want to go, text me for the tix.)

4.) Speech day on Saturday. -__-'

5.) And Sunday is SENTOSA outing.

( can't fuckyn wait to cum at SENTOSA's beach )

So there you go.

And work have been a lil better for me.

But who knows right.

Till then.

Chow!!

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

IM SO SICK.

2008-06-27T11:57:00.003+08:00

Hey kids. These few days were so mundane. A major one indeed. Lately i have not been sleeping quite well. Have been tossing and turning tremendously. I was having high fever yesterday and went to family's private doctor and did some check up too. The results shows that my body immune system was really weak and its time for my body to have its TIME OUT. So this was one thing that i have to worry but another major one was more worrying. The doctor said that ive been suffering from nose infection since forever i guess. In another word for that, im having SYNASE. FTW! Okay this is sooo not okay to me. No wonder my nose have been leaking like tap water every night before bed. This is just so perfect. Im down with fever, flu, immune system is really low and yesss one more thing my throat is swollen. How the hell am i getting through this till tomorrow. Yes the big day. The gig. Hell no im not gonna be sick. I have to get well real fast. And i mean it real fast. Tonight we'll be jamming and who knows what would my voice sound like. A croaking frog. Pfft! Why must this happen at the last minute. My body just wants it's time out at the wrong time. I hate taking medicine especially the one that causes drowsiness which is for flu and antibiotics. They make me feel more lethargic sia. The flu medcine makes me sleep all day long till im too tired to sleep. The antibiotics makes me sweat a kezillion times more than a usual human being. But i hope its for the better. Okay kids thanks for your patience. I just needed to whine about how sick i am bout this crap lately. Well till then. Adios!

+spits. im-Shekyn-thedork+

2008-06-23T02:09:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO!!!

I NEED A HAIRCUT REAL SOOON!

AND WHEN I SAY CUT I REALLY MEAN IT!

I HOPE SOOOOO!!

I noe. Of all the updates to be updated im updating on stupid things.

Well i have too cuz dis few days i have been whining about how my split ends is destroying my image of my long beautiful balck hair! eeeerrrrrghhhhhhh!!

hahahaha! omg dis is sooooo self-proclaiming.

well anyways any suggestion how to cut my hair.

maybe i wan it short bud not too short.

juz to remove the split ends.

bud dere's too many of dem!!

omg! can i juz drop to bald! so i can grow new and freshy beautiful hair.

i mean not. LOL!!

okay cut the crap. i'll see wat i can do with my hair juz to get rid of these destroying split ends.

life soo far has been like normal plus more tiring and less thinking.

its soooo empty. its like a hollow tree. its B-O-R-I-N-G.

i dunno why. dunt ask me.

whenever im too tired i do less thinking.

this means im becomyn stupid.

and becomyng more mute.

hahaha! crap again sia!

and yess ppl, i have an anouncement to make.

on this cumyn 28th June,

my band Lagi SKA-Li will be performing at the Arts Museum.

and yesss this is for real.

so make urself free on dat day. or else be gay!

Its free admission. The gig is from 1pm-6pm.

I have not been updated yet wad tyme will our slot be at.

So pape gonchang doks!!

i guess dats it. :)

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

PARAMORE!!! 19th JULY. FORT CANNING PARK!!

2008-06-08T23:57:00.005+08:00

HEY PARAMORE FANATICS!!!!!!!

HAVENT EU HEARD THAT THEY'LL BE IN S'PORE ON 19th JULY!!!!!

Im not so shure bout it. Bud if its for real, im gonna freak out and turn gay!
Ive been waeting for this moment sia!!!!!
HELL BALLLLLLLSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A KEZILLLIONNN BALLSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its in dis webby. go check it out doods!!

http://www.last.fm/event/623786

ive done sum thinking and analyzing stuff and the results is they're prolly dropping by Singapore for real!!! OMGZZZZZ!!!! im sooooo pulling-out-own-intestine-and-swinging-it-around-the-room feelingssssss now! jeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzz....... bud money again. D-A-M-N! I hope dis is for real.Or else dissapointment here i cum.

*and here are the updates for SINGFest 2008 band line-ups.

Saturday, 2nd August 08

-Simple Plan
-Lost Prophets
-Crowned King
-Travis
-NEW FOUND GLORY!!!!! omgzzzzzzz!!!! or wad?
-Dearest

Sunday, 3rd August 08

-Jamie Scott (?????? lol)
-Jason Mraz
-Rick Astley (lol again.)
-One Republic
-Panic! At The Disco!!!!! lyke omgggggggggggggzzzzzzz!!! or wad too?
-Stacie Orrico
-Alicia Keys (HARDCORE AT THE MOMENT)

soooo yeahhhh..... its kinda unfair cuz two of my most fav. band wil be performing in two diff. days. boooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!! period.

well i shall make my decision once money is in my hands.
im soooooo eager and i cant believe it that S'pore is sooooooo HARDCORE. not.
well, prices still sucks. juz hope dat the prices would decrease and we can be happy2 ppl with no heart pain guin to Singfest yo!!

so yeahhh dats about it so far.
shall update sooner or later yo!
tyme to work my ass off for $$$$$$$!!
*inserts as many sad face as eu want*

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

2008-06-08T21:11:00.004+08:00

Yeahhhh kids. I noe ive not been updating things lately. Well, dere's not much to say bout things lately cuz nutynk amusing amaze me enough. Haha! and yeahhhh im under employment. yess im back at that ohhh soooo fucked up place. yesssssss dat one. hushhhhh..... i dunt wana name the company or wutsoever shit name dey name it. cuz it might prolly appear in Google's search engine and i prolly get busted if any involving authorities were to find out. yesssss kecut and kentals i am. so wad. be it. pisses on eu. hahaha!

okay kids. so dis is partly the reason why ive not been updating dis shit. im working. working for wad? to earn extra income for myself rather than asking money frm P-A-R-E-N-T-S. yessssss i still ask dem for money. i noe, im such a bcgf2ygfwhbfy3gv1937~!!!!! yeahhh eu name it. oh well after all it is their duty. see how selfish i am. not. im not wad eu tynk i am. haha!

waet a minute. scartch dat. i mean a sec!

THE MAIN REASON WAS BECAUSE OF P!ATD!!!!

HELL BALLS IM SUPPORTING DEM!

dats why i made sacrifices to werk my ass off.

and bare wid the job eventhough its a pain in the ass kinda job.

not literally asshole!

seeeee Brandon. i sacrifice juz to watch eu cum on me. hahaha!

till then. i'll be updating soon guyz.

kay byezzzz!

p.s: i need to leps real soooon. im beginning to miss the nonsence guyz. real soon kay?

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

TEENAGE ANGST!

2008-05-26T02:05:00.007+08:00

Just when i thought things were alright, everything to me just felt lyke shit.

Like i mean it. It's shit. Idk why bud its just shit.

What i felt before and now shall never be understood.

Im pretty shure that i'll be facing shits and more shits for the rez of my life.

Ongoing. Still going. and never stop.

Ohhhhh goshhhh.

Im being sensetive this few days.

Is this the aftermath of PMS.not.

that was a week or two ago. pffft!

IDK what im feeling. IDK is it SHIT or wad.

urghhhhhh...

i feel so disturbed and sumtynk is not right.

I juz duno how to describe my feelings now.

Can i not say feelings. I hate the werd feelings.

It sounded soooooo depressive. I hate being depress.

Something's missing. Something i need to put a smile on my looooooooooonggggg face.

Not a person. Not sumtynk. IDK what it is.

I noe eu kids wont get what im trying to convey.

but try to understand.

i fuckyn hate this feeling. uuurghhh.

a tendency to stress the negative or unfavorable.

to take the gloomiest possible view on everytynk that cums across me!!

i hate dis. i hate dis. i hate dis. i hate dis. i hate dis. i hate dis.

I wana be asleep forever. Idk why. Bud maybe that's the best solution to stop dis shit.

WWWWWWWWWWWTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Im whining again and again and agian and again and agian and agian and again and again.

This is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........................

Urghhhhhh. I feel lyke beating up sumone real soon.

I feel the urge to vent out this feelings that is sooooooooooo unexplained.

anger. anger. anger. anger. anger. anger. anger. anger. and its overloading me.

I HATE THIS SHIT LYKE FREAKYN BIG TYME. PERIOD.

juz dunt talk to me anyone. i need sumtyme alone now.

till this shit ends. hopefully. sooner or later.

im not what eu tynk i am kay kids.

if i do find out what's bothering me the most i shall share sum part of it real soon.

i hope this wud really end sooooooooooooooon.

I WANA FUCKYN BEAT THE GUTS OUT OF SUMONE RYTE NOW!

any volunteeeeeeeeeeeeeeerssss for my angst??

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

2008-05-24T01:08:00.003+08:00

This is a 10 year old Swedish girl.Amazing and very powerful voice fo her ageI envy her siaaaaaaaaaa.....and btw aku tao, aku pon tak phm ape bahse sia!hurhur.

Check out the guy wearing orange.Coooooool shit yo!maybe i shud start learning this robot dance.any coaches or professionals??ya ya papaya!

And another one.:)
Shorty got low, low, low, low, low, low...... +spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

2008-05-23T16:43:00.006+08:00

Havent eu heard that David Cook is this year's IDOL!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! kudos to Cook! eu've done us proud! :) ur hardwork has paid off. an amazing singer yet a talented young man indeed. To Archuleta, see eu laterrrrr! haha! kidding. anyways, eu also did a wonderful job. dunt worry, there's a definite career after this journey. eu will surely be lyke Clay Aiken, eu will also be makyn balls of money. *grins*

and yessss no more IDOLS till next year. and wad bout Sinagpore's? where eu go lah dei? hmmmm.... ive heard dat there will be no more IDOLS cuz it has been two straight winnings that my race, Malay, took the victory. WTH! if dat was the reason, nehhh, try harder next tyme! such a stoopid reason fer not opening up S'pore Idol back.

anyways, holiday has been wasted on things that is not worthwhile. i mean not the tymes wen i spend it with my leps kakis, its the tyme wen i oni sit at home and surf the net all day long if i have no plans for dat day. i shud haf sumtynk to worry bout sia. lyke filling up my portfolio and creating more inspiring shit ass designs. geeeeeezzzzz! how i have wasted tyme! fuck! and yah before i have fogetten i have to lyke register for the Photography course that i get it for free upon purchasing the DSLR cam ive bought (apparently using my dad's bucks) earlier this year. soooo yeahhhhh. soon i'll be updating things and i have to get sum inspiration by now to start designing stuff. pfffft! any kind volunteers to give me ideas to get me started?? :)

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

:)

2008-05-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

How i wish Paramore was formed up wen i was this little.
(that's lyke ages ago)
So i can ask her for a date and definitely she wud say yessss!
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! +spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

Valora

2008-05-21T02:03:00.003+08:00

IS THIS THE NEW PARAMORE??

She's not dat bad after all.More of dem, go check it out on Youtube yo!BUD PARAMORE IS STILL THE BEST!!!!!!

And another from them.

On a Roller Coaster at Disneyland yo!

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

LETS MAKE DIS LAST FOREVER!

2008-05-20T23:54:00.007+08:00

okay kids. i feel lyke dis shit is bothering me. i cant stop filling my head with question unanswered. i feel lyke dere's sumtynk for me to know. lyke seriusly know. i mean its necessary for me to know. urghhhh. i hate dis. totally irk me out. urghhhh. somebody kill me. pls.

okay wad's bothering? i tynk is my band. well days pass by and so far we have not been havyng massive jammin lyke we use to last tyme. and yesss almost all of dem are guin NS soon. and thank eu very nyce, left wid me and Dolah, which is impossible fer us to go thru dis music world on our own. omgahhh! im dying already even wen sum of eu are still visible in the band. oh well, still i have to accept the fact dat i will not be duin dis stuff no longer. i have to stop dreaming but to start believing. oh what the hell! to make it simple, i dun want the band to literally shut down/close down!!!!!!! im soooooo gonna be saddddddddddddddd. lyke EMOOOO SADDDDD!!!!! :'( :'( :'( :'(

it will juz feel lyke dat's the end of the world. It will juz feel lyke i had this big break up!!!!

booooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

im dying alreadyy. im dying. im dying im dying.

i cant leave without eu ppl/music/nonsense/gays/assholes!!!!

i only can relate to all of eu. i hate girls. i dunt wan girlfrens. i want steady girlfriends! *gay term* what the helllllllllllllllllllll!!!

im so drama mama mia. okay. stop.

I JUZ DUNT WANT DIS TO END SO FAZ!!!!!!!!! ILAOYVM!!!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxo!!!

bud what bother me the most is will Lagi Ska-Li last lyke forever??? huh? huh? huh? (okay part ni tipu uh, idts it wil be forever, bud it is still my dream eu see.)

ohhhhhhhhhhhh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

i hate to tynk bout small lil things and ends up im trying to kill myself with all the questions running around my head! pffft.

im gonna make dis clear, even after eu doods have completed ur NS and sum circumstances dats guin on ard Iman have obviously/clearly stopped, i hope we wud still be together as one band. im totally putting hopes on all of eu. lyke i say before, we are one big family dat no one can replace each individual in the band. i will never let this go easily and promised me eu too do the same. i love all of eu lyke GAY love.

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

2008-05-19T17:39:00.002+08:00

AWWWWWWWWWWW!
HAYLEY WILLIAMS!
HOW ADORABLE EU ARE!
IM PROUD TO BE UR WIFE!
*GRINS GRINS*

YEAHHHHH!!
SHAKE UR MONEYMAKER!!!!
YEAHHHH!! p.s: NAZ MOVE AWAY FRM HER OR ELSE I'LL SQUIRT EVRYWHERE ON UR FACE!!HOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!* grins grins grins* +spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

BAPAK KAO STYLE UH!!

2008-05-19T15:32:00.003+08:00

Wahhhh aku dah kahwin and ade anak lelaki!

mcm tak phm uh!

and aku pregnant lage!

amacam? maut pe sia!

pikir style pe??

kimice!

MORAL OF THE STORY:

dunt assume things before knowing and checking out the fact. BULLSHIT!

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!

kimci. buto uh.

hahahahaha!

p.s: the chalet sucks bud the food power ranger! ikan pari bakar! AHHHHHHH!!

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

Lipsync to That's What You Get.

2008-05-18T17:29:00.004+08:00

This is because of addiction.This is because i LOVE HAILEY!This is because i was brainwash by Naz and Luqman.This is now my daily dosage.Im not Hayley bud i love Hayley.I dunt want to be her bud i wana be wid her.HOHOHOHOHO!so guyz out dere, dunt even tynk of gettyn her.she's mine!i chop already with a pack of tissue paper on her face!wueeeeeeekssss!cum faces on euuuuuu!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!p.s: up yours!!+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork+

i tynk i love her lyke gay love.

2008-05-18T01:59:00.001+08:00

DAILY/24-7 DOSAGE!!!

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore

It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score

And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here
Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here

I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

Pain, make your way to me, to me
And I'll always be just so inviting
If I ever start to think straight
This heart will start a riot in me
Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa!

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

p.s: i tynk im in love with Hayley. ohh why? lyke gay love. *winks*

+spits.im-Shekyn -thedork, 2.26am+

hey eu noe wad, i dont hate eu anymore.

2008-05-16T03:49:00.000+08:00

( i wana be lyke dis again. not too fat. not too kurus. not. i juz love myself before nw. pfft! dis is weight issue. im havyn it now. bloody weight issue. eu suck big tyme mofo! )

i dunno why bud suddenly i feel lyke im missing sumone. idk why. i was bloghoping and i came across this blog dat belongs to a so called swan enemy. i read her post and alot of it was about her boyfy. well, to be exact dat guy use to be my special friend lyke in 2006 which was 2yrs ago. and we were at the edge of moving into a major relationship. hmmmmm... to me it was juz a typical trying to find the right guy/girl thingy. and sumhow i didnt take it seriusly after i found out dat he found sumone better than me after less msg-ing and calling. i juz wasnt sure at that time also. i was still small the pieces girl dat always think wadever happens, juz happened.

okay baq to the blog i was browsing thru. every post has this little phrase or sentence or paragraph about hym. and those photos of em togeder, is juz a major test to my sense of jealousy. bud i kept calm. bud as i kept on reading post by post, im beginning to not hate her bud congratulate and applaud her for her love for that particular guy. i feel soooo bad after all these yrs hating her fer no particular, reasonable reason. its not her fault kan? i noe. aku kan bitch. bud i respect their love fer each other sey. they're so sweet togeder. how i wish i was her. wahhhh soo feeling sia cibai! no bud i mean it. they shud hav each other. all this things happen with God's will. im so happy fer her to hav hym instead of me. dis is wad God have been planning all aong eu see. and maybe if i were to be with hym instead, maybe sumtynk unpredictable will happen. sumtynk bad. sumtynk dat i cant take it. sumtynk that i cant handle. cuz ive been applying my life with this saying " God will never give us somthing that we could not handle."

well i guess, i have made it clear girl. i have no whatsoever grudges on eu. well, be happy always with hym by ur side. take good care of hym. hys a good man. a loving and sweet one too. i wish both of eu well.

bud can i juz say dis, can i miss hym a lil. imy.

bud i miss that other person even more! like a kezillion more!

i wana be in ur closet so dat every nyte wen eu're asleep i can snuggle up to eu and hold eu in my arms till morning cums and i'll be baq in ur closet waityng for eu to slyp again.

okay dis sounds so wrong i tynk. im not a stalker or sum kind of a psycho kay.

im juz being all mushy mushy. heeeeek -.- or maybe becuz im pms-ingn ( major yay! if eu kids noe wad i mean. ) and i tend to be all mushy and emotional over small issues. hahaha! shuddup. i noe.

okay im still not slypyn yet lah. its lyke 4 in the mornin and tears are pourin.... wtf! no im not crying fer goodness sake. -.- im juz surfing the net till my body aches. okay i tynk that's about it kids. i will be updating sooner or later aye. bye kids!

p.s: i tynk Yana shud noe whu im refering to in this particular post. *nyeahaha*

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 4.12 am+

2008-05-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

okay kids. as most of eu cum faces noe, im freakyn relief dat my fuckyn assesments are over lyke yesterday. im now on fuckyn holiday!! Give it to me baby, uhuh, uhuh! yeahhhhh... ive been waetyn fer this glory moment of mine and yessss here it cums! lyke cumsssss! and now i hav to look fer a job to keep myself busy during this hols or else i'll rot myself at home. and i should look fer a job cuz i need money fer Singfest yo! and yesssss PANIC! i should get backstage passes cuz im tryin to work my ass off to watch eu guys cum on me! lols!

well here's the update kids. since there is sum request fer me to update dis blog. aku malas lah actually. i will only update wen ive nutynk to do wen onlining or i hav sum issues ard me eu see. bud fer the sake of the readers i shall update kay.

yesterday,yesterday, i met wid Amyn, Karym at buis after skul. We accompanied Amyn to shop fer a bag which eventually he regret buyin it and up till now he is still whining bout it! this boy thinks too much lah for a small thing. hiayoo. den after dat we proceed to Changi Airport Terminal 3 as wad was planned. We were craving fer Popeyes chicken yo! thanks to Qayum. and yahhh. Terminal 3 pehhhhh lawa! i was lyke wow-ing all the way. eventhough im a S'porean eu see. aku peh jakon! naek lift pon wow sia! bud seriusly aku jakon gils! hahaha! we walked ard lukyn fer Popeyes and yessssssss we saw the werd Popeyes like poping out! and i was lyke yeahhhhhhh Popeye is in da haus yo!!!! and yah we met Shahidah too.

all of us bought 3 piece chicken meal. It consist of 1big fat chicken, 1 medium chicken, 1 small chicken, fries that has herbs in it, 1 piece of biscuits which to me looks like a bun and 1 regular beverage. and aku dpt ayam besar siol! hardcore pe!! weeeeeee... ape lage aku bedal uh mcm tak pernah mkn ayam. dah lapar ape nak buat. mcm MONGSTER sia! we ate and ate and laugh and laugh and burp and burp and laugh and laug and ate and ate and burp and burp and dah kenyang pas tu nak tido. bleh? hahaha!

after dat we tour ard the airprt. took the sky train back and forth. and act lyke sum kind of Indonesian freaks talkin in Indon. Like always im always good at it. and crap ard and slack ard. and took pics lyke tourist. and yahhh we went off after dat. off to Wdls. our homeland. :) The day was quite tirin though cuz i haf not been gettyng enuff sleep because of assesments eu see. and yeahhhh i need a lot of rez or shall i say hibernation/ slyp until die.

okay kids. so i guess dat's about it yo! im havyn my hols so those whu wana ask me out pls do ur booking a.s.a.p aye! :) cheeeehhhhhhh step mane nye hot jek aku! kimice. i shall update sooner or later. okay peace out yo! bye cum faces!!!!! kimci.

BYE KIMICE!!

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 1.36am+

Panic! is in da house!

2008-05-06T13:07:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH!!!!!!!

AKU SUKE GILS! AKU HAPPY GILS! AKU EXCITED GILS! AKU GAYING GILS! AKU GONCHANG-ING GILS! AKU ESTATIC GILS! AKU CONTENTED GILS! AKU EUPHORICALLY JUMPYN GILS! AND AKU SOOOOOOO GUIN TO SEE PANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks Luqman for updating it at ur blog! Wen i read dat post, i kept rubbing my eyes cuz i totally tot i was seeing two! bud totally its SUMPAH TAK BEDEK PANIC! CUMYN TO SINGAPUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRR!!!

FUCKYN JYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

IM SO TURNING INTO A GAY!!!!!!!!!!!

WELL WHO'S IN???

Woooooooooooooooo ive been saying dis to Qayuum dat if Panic! were to cum, i mean lyke cum face on me, im sooooo freakyn gay! And now im turning GAY can? wooooooooo PANIC!! sia!!!!!!! IM SOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! and sooooooooooooo GAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! Well at least i noe dis earlier so im prepared and not stupid enuff to follow somebody, saying dat he/she is not guin fer SINGFEST last yr and end up aku yg kene buih psl member ge SINGFEST at the last minute and not to spend my money on stuff dat is not worth buyin! and i end up celebratyn National Day at the baq of a white pick up plus the view of the firewerks lyke suckssssssssss big tyme!!

okay dat was last yr. no dissapointment fer dis year. and i'll promise dis to myself.

im soooo gonna werk lyke crazeeeeeeeee during my hols (which is lyke next week after Weds! :D) earn a lot of fuckyn bucks!!! save it fer SINGFEST!!!!!!! and yessss PANIC!, Shekyn is in da house yo!!!

PLUS PLUS PLUS PLUSSSS!!!

CALIBAN will also be in S'pore, Aug 10 at Downtown East yo!!!!

woooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

dat day wil be the most brutal day fer our locals yo!!!

BRUTALITY IS THE NEW SEX YO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wahhhhh S'pore hav been sooooooo good since last yr eh...

Lyke dis i'll be soooooo loyal to the country and say my pledge every morning even if my school didnt have dis kind of shit lyke i use to have back den in Si Ling lahhhhh.... mcm phm eh.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! :D

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 3.22pm+

2008-05-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

In Loving Memory of Our Beloved and Dearest MAIZURAH.

31st May 1992 - 02 May 2008

We will always be with eu...

We will always remember eu in our prayers....

Eu're a good person my dear....

Memories of eu shall never fade within us....

Your family love eu dearly....

Im shure God will always be with eu....

and ur family

and ur friends....

We will miss eu Maizurah.

imy. ily dearly.

WE miss eu.

p.s: Karym, all of us is here to help eu get thru dis kay.

im shure God loves her more and puts her in a safer place.

juz remember her in ur prayers my dear.

plus always remember eu're not alone.

WE LOVE EU SOO FRM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEART!

<3<3<3<3<3<3

Get Well Soon....

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 11.22pm+

2008-05-01T01:21:00.000+08:00

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII AAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMM SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWW
........................................................................CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNN???

this message goes out to DDDDDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!

Below is a video of dis kid dancin to Britney's old track.

and he was nearly scared to death.

go check it out dood!

THIS IS THE SHIT SIA!!!!

BRITNEY SPEARS ROCK BIG TYME!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

TILL THEN FUCKERS!!

LABOUR DAY HERE I COME!!

-______________-"

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 1.27am+

madmadmad FRIDAY!!!

2008-04-26T18:05:00.000+08:00

okay kids. my appeal for my debarment is approved and yessss i can take my assesment. thanks. i have told that the HOD will surely approved any kind of valid reasons cuz there were too many of them debared frm assesment. on second thought, if they were to debare alot of the students then alot of them will be retaking their modules that were debared and alot will be retaking 1st year. well, it doesnt make sense sia. they wouldnt want the entire 1st yr student to retake their 1st yr ryte. hiayoooo. so dis shows how my school is soooooo jdyqqlt2iqgwqudbwhdi! i was the one worryin and paniclyatthedisco and outside there, there's a whole bunch of students debared and taking things lightly. well, watever it is im not gonna take things for granted. i noe waht i did before was wrong, skipping classes, and i have to face reality and deserve this tough phase in my life. i hope i can change for the better for the forth comming days, weeks, months and years in NAFA. :)

and here are sum of the crazzzzzzzzzeeeee pics that the other day we took wen leps-ing. well we played around with Luqman's Rydon. and yesssssaaaa Rydon is no more a virgin. Kene GANGBANG from all of us that day! wooooohooooo!!! okay enjoy the pics below. dunt get all horny by the pics and start gonchang-ing infront of ur pc/lappys kay... lols! :D

+spits,im-Shekyn-thedork,11.28am+

KENTALSSSSSS!!

2008-04-23T02:02:00.001+08:00

okay kids. sooo far dis few days i have been turning up for school.
well, typical uh. kalao dah kene debar, dah takot and kecot,
ape lageeeee, GO TO SCHOOL LAH!! kentalssss...

okok. sooooooo, so far everytynk is fine i guess.
hopefully, for the forth coming weeks lah before assesments.
and yessssss.....
assesments is celebrating soon.
i mean, is nearing.
ohhhh goshh.. prepare for many sleepless nytes Shekyn. pfft.
two more weeks doks. wait. scratch dat off!
its friggyn one more week. shit!
dis is soooo crucial lah i muz say.
wth uh. haf to work my freakyn ass off lah.
juz to be able to make it to year two.
i guess wit my kind of grades, i shud be able to make it.

(dis sentence is underline for John. -__-' )
hohoho!!

well, the feeling of guin to school everyday is gay.
i mean school is really gay-ing me.
idk why bud dats how i define school.
it used to a bitch, bud for now, its gay-ing.
lalalalalalalala! school still sucks anyway.
im trying to get up quickly and get baq on track eu see.
sooooooo ppl in skul gotta giv me chance to work my ass off!
or damn ryte eu will be cursed with the word 'DICK' tattooed on ur forehead.
and i freakyn mean it. period.

surprisingly, ppl around me hav been all nice to me.
after all the shits i have gone thru. thanks.
idk why and dunt ask why.
i guess God hav prove dem justice.
sooo kids, please me, and i'll be tremendously nice to eu.
or eu will be running frm a dagger stabbing bitch i tell eu.

okay i tynk dis shud be enuff for now.
kay bye! gotta run. i mean walk to bed uh.
sape nak ge layan sia lari. kimice eu....

idk why bud i juz feel lyke putting up dis photos.
cuz its damn KENTALSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!!!

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO!!!!!!

guess where i get em. during lecturer's evaluation! lols lah!

and suprisingly is NAFA's lecturers.

-________-"

Design Drawing lecturer. Mr Goh. cute eh??

hys super nice though!

Visual Studies lecturer. John! look soooo criminal uh i tell eu.

take care sia!

History of Visual arts lecturer. Miss Kay. kental or wad?

her sense of humour is WOW kay!

THATS ALL LAH KIDS!

PAPE GONCHANG AKU DOKS!!!

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 2.14am+

total let down. giving up.

2008-04-21T00:42:00.000+08:00

dang. i hate life. period.
whhhyyyyyyy????
what wrongs have i done to deserve dis craps????
im trying my best bud dis is wad i get.
im trying too hard and dis is enough. stop.
i cant take dis pressure no more.
its killing me slowly and eating me up inside.
ive been keeping it to myself.
nooooo. im not my usual self wen it
comes to dis type of situation.
facial expressions wont tell all.
eu gotta feel the insides and eu will noe.
im alrdy at my lowest breaking point.
i need a miracle. like seriusly.
cuz im giving dis up. soon.

maybe dis is not my future.
maybe im juz too weak to get thru dis.
ya allah, help me dis tyme.
im no longer strong neither thinking straight.
i need ur guidence.
i need eu to show me thru this walks of life.
help me. help the person within me. help me get up quickly.
help my family. help us get thru dis togeder.
i cant bare seeing mama and ayah suffering this much.
i love dem dearly. i love all of them eventhough i didnt show.
seriusssss...............................ily.

tears running dwn my eyes every night.
contemplating. juz tryin to understand my life.
bud the more i think, the more im not stable.
i did mistakes, and im trying to get back on track eu see.
ive regret. bud the most, ive regret regretting.
cuz i no its no use. i got to move on and stick with wad im gun thru.
i cant escape reality eu see.
i cant be ignorant.
i cant be stubborn.
i cant be egoistic.

patience. i need alot of dis.
oh god help me get up.
teach me how to get up be it the hard way.
i keep falling back.
at least loosen the burden of my parents and i'll do the rez.
im not complaining bout my life,
bud dis is major let down. and im feeding on it. i have to.
accept dis. be strong shekyn. wad more can eu do.
stay strong and persevere thru dis layers of let downs...
it will paid off sooner or later.
as if.

if i had one wish,
i wish dat all good things wont have its ending.

"dont let anyone stop eu frm having dreams...."

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 1.28am+

SCHOOL SUCKS AND I SUCK TOO!

2008-04-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL 'S A BITCH!!
BIG TYME!!

Juz as i have expected. and juz my freaking luck!
i checked my e-mail juz now, and yah a DEBARMENT LETTER was given.
not only one but freaking 4 letters were given!
pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffft!

wad more can i say..... hmmmmm. i feel stupid!
yes stupid in a way dat im really regreting it.
and yahhh... im debared! accept the fact eu freakyn MOFO.

as of those whu hav been keeping track on me, on my few previous post,
ive posted an entry letting eu guyz noe dat i haf not been turning up fer
skul fer lyke 4 days straight and im at my ending point of loosing my interest fr skul.....
bud eu noe wad, it wasnt 4 days, it was freaking 7 days straight!
yessssss i offered myself a self-public hols!
dis clearly explains why i was debared for assesment!
freaking fucking thanks.
and wad more can i explain. im sick of dis shit in skul!

SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
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SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!!!

and i suck too. fuuuuuuuuuuuckkkk.
kaninayahhhhh.nabey fuck uh.buto uh.
kimiceeeeeee.neneh kochang.scumsss.
and pisses on euuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PERIODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 12.52am+

2008-04-09T02:50:00.000+08:00

I FUCKYN WANT GUITAR HERO LAH FUCK!!!!!

I CANT GET ENUFF OF GUITAR HERO JUZ BY WATCHING THESE VIDEOS!

I WANT GUITAR HERO NOW!!

i was watching videos frm Chiodos and i found dis.
makes me wana go gu gu gah gah over GUITAR HERO!
MOMMY GT ME GUITAR HERO!
AND I PROMISE I'LL BE GOOD FER THE REZ OF MY ROCKIN LIFE!!

ENJOY DOKS!!!

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 3.03am+

2008-04-05T03:08:00.000+08:00

What if your friend says :

1."I've fallen in love with your boyfriend."
- i will go AHHHHHHH DIE EU BITCH! haha.

2."Don't talk to me anymore, you betrayer."
- yay. kay bye. tc.

3."Put your head in the dustbin and all's forgiven."
- tk nk uh dustbin. busok uh bodo.

4."I made out with your boyfriend yesterday night."
-where? his hot ryte.... i noe.

5."Stop acting cute la sey."
- *divasnaps like alot* AKU MMG CUTE!

What if your ex says:

1."Baby please come back to me."
- haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh~~

2."Why did you let me go?"
- cuz i rather save myself from dat blue car speeding towrds us wen we were crossing the rd.
i still wana watch Blink 182 live in s'pore eu noe.

3."My friends think you're ugly."
- didnt i heard frm ur fren the other day dat eu were uglier.

4."Stop being so difficult."
- like wad? didnt wana blow ur dick. go blow urself. HAH!

5."I will always love you."
- lalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalalalala!!

What if your BESTFRIEND of the opposite sex says:

1."I think i like you"
- okay cool. i like eu too.

2."My lover says i cannot be friends with you anymore in order to continue my relationship with her"
- ask her to go fuck her dog. and go get herself a new bf.

3."I wonder why we were never together"
- cuz eu didnt ask.

4."You're so fat."
- if it was KARYM, " EH2 kao lage dah empat org nak kate aku!"

5."What do you see in that boyfriend/girlfriend of yours?"
- humour and never fail to make me smile. :)

+spits. im-shekyn-thedork, 3.47am+

2008-04-04T17:44:00.000+08:00

aye ppl. i noe. wad i update here are most bout shits. i shall truly update wad im suppose too kay.

i bloghop juz now and i see the way others blog. wad ive realised is the only main reason dat i suddenly stop bloghop juz now is once i came across a girl whu she cud only blog bout boys and boys and boys. Hidop kao tak boring ke penoh nan laki. Kao slalu bebol psl kao suke jantan ni uh kao suke jantan tu uh. Jantan ni hot stuff uh. Jantan ni gabret uh. Jantan tu muke pecah uh. Kao tak muak eh. Aku jelak sak bace kao nye post. aku baru bace 2-3 of kao nye post jek aku cam nak delete kao nye blog. bud too bad tak lei. haha! pade aku, kao adelah pompuan yg tk de mase hadapan nye org uh. kao baek ge plan nak uat ape for kao nye future so dat kao nye future tak hancor uh. aku tak tao uh kalao kao masih nak hidop ni mcm uh. bud kao pikir uh ape kao dpt hari2 asik pikir psl konek! kao tak dpt hasil uh unless jantan2 yg kao bebol psl tu seme nak kao uh dok. i suggest kao baik ge plan buka business uh. aku nengok gaye2 kao kao tak leh ge far uh. kao buka business jual epok-epok pon cantik uh gerl. kao ge jual hari2 uh. lepas tu kao tak yah risau kao leh make it tak in future eh. psl kao dah tao uat epok-epok pe. aku rase ade jugak laki yg suke pompuan die pandai uat epok-epok. kao give it a shot uh dok. kalao kao sucess kao blang aku uh. pas tu aku make shure kao kate beribu thanks nan aku uh. tak de aku, kao tak de hidop uh. mcm phm.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

I got myself a new cat. i mean is still a kitten though. We adopt her frm SPCA where they found her stranded at the road during a heavy rain. and dis clearly explains why i call her ELLA! isnt she adorable! hehehe! :DD

and den yesterday after skul. I and qayum walk2 at bugis area dere. Behind the bugis street dere. Den we bump into dis guy. Dis guy here rides his bike all around the world. He is trying to break the the Guiness World Record. He has been travelling around the world since 27 May 2000! Wowwwww. Travel alone sia. take care uh. ive seen the map dat he showed me and qayum. and ive seen dat he has been to hungary, portugal, thailand, hong kong and lots more uh. mcm tak woooooooooo kan gytu. aku salute giler babs! he is deaf and mute anyway. i duno wen will he stop. hahaha! me and qayum den took pic wid hym uh. den donate hym money fer hys petrol! :)

kay kids. On wed, 2nd april, i went to ECP and sumtynk happen uh. sumtynk unexpected. the whole lot of us didnt see it cumyn. seriusly all awhile i tot it was juz an April fool prank. hahaha! Dyla played roller blade and dislocate her knee. she den was being send to the hospital by this hensem paramedic. hahaha!

To rep up everytynk! THE SUPER DUPER RIDERS!

+spits. im-shekyn-thedork, 6.34pm+

2008-03-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

okay kids....
here's wad im guin thru dis few days.
thoughts dat can nvr be answered.
decisions after decisions.
i cant make it.
straight to the point. im very indecisive bout dis thing here.
and again straight to the point im at my lowest breaking point to leave my studeis in NAFA!

welll..... im not giving up fully.
okay fair enough, lets juz put dis straight.
i sucked at juggling things at hm wid things in skul.
eu noe wad. im still at this mindset of enjoying my life.
and i still want too.
fuck uh! dis irks me out big tyme.
i hate to tynk bout skul, my assigments, the fuckyn werk load!
i juz cant take it.
and fyi, visual comm is not an easy diploma fer eu to really get the hang out of it.
its superbly suckyn out the fun out of my fuckyn daily life.
euuu seeee! all i cud tynk is enjoying my life to the fullest.

i was wrong. i made my wrong choice. i shud hav thought thru earlier.
im too late. its fuckyn too late. things wont change. dis is wad God has been planning fer me after all. endure it? nooooo i cant. no longer cant!
im still in this thinking process.
i have not yet to make my final decision.
sooooo ppl whu hav not been seeing me in skul fer the past 4 days.
this is wad ive been duin.
THINKING! think.think.think.think.think. and think!
ppffttt.
this is juz crap man. this is shit.
skul's a bitch. life's even a bigger bitch!
uuurghhhh.... i better stop now.
im sick of dis.

FUCK YOU!

BYE KANINAYAS!!!
hell balls im really pissed.
fuck ur dogs and pisses on eu.

+spits. im-Shekyn-thedork, 1.37am+

2008-03-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

okay kids. i bought a new thmbdrive today. YAY.
-______-'
at last lah fuck.
kalao tak terkial-kial lah aku nak save illustration aku.
dah uh kakak aku pelokek besar!
nak simpan document pat dlm ni lappy pon kemot besar!
sorry uh pelokek!

so my thumbdrive is not dat big.
its 1gb only uh.
here cums the bez part.....
it cums with a 4gb thumdrive too. FOC lah sey.
hahaha!
kao pikir s'pore bodowww pe nak uat offer ni mcm.
tak dpt uh!
BODOH!
tak de larh... the truth is my sis gave hers to me.
she say she cant use it cuz of wad stupid not compatible wid her office pc lah wad shit lah blahh blah blah la lala lalaa lala brooootttttt.
ape lage aku kalao psl dpt free aku gembire lah!
hahaha!
thanks uh ehk pelokek.
so eu prove sumtynk eh big sis, dat eu're not PELOKEK jugak. lmao!

nutynk much bout today lah.
went lepak near amyn's place dere.
met karym, amyn and naz.
den yana join us a bit later.
den talk cock lah. do sum exercise. and i mean it exercise.
den play cards. smoke till we die. not.
den cukop tyme balek loh.....

and im here still online. not sleepy yet.
tahu2 jek lah. aku kan cam burung hantu.
kimice.... mlm aku pehhhh active.
tak lah active smpai nak lari2 sane sini lah legong!
as in my eyes can still be wide open at the wee hours.
andddd yahhhh.... bsok skul start kul 12! pfffft.
by ryte shud start at 3pm. bud dere's make up lesson 2mrw lah.
for Digital Art. cuz last friday kan public hols. soooooo yeahhh.....
cant slyp dat late.

okay kids! ive got sum entertainment dat eu kids shud check it out!
summmm funny shit lah!!

dis is a remake of Micheal Jackson's video called "Thriller"
sumpah mepek siak ni video!
watch the subtitles kids. eu will be LYAO!
ive watch a few tymes and it juz irritates me more lah!
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
eu kids shud get irritated kay.

and here are sum videos frm this year cheerobis comp.
as follows.....
1st video: Magnum Force (open category)
2nd video: Magnum Force All-Girls Team
3rd video: NTU Aces (open category)
4th video: NTU Aces Team B
5th video: KR Steppers
6th video: Team Spectrum (team category)
7th video: NUS Alpha Verve
8th video: Original? Magnum vs Cheerleader Queens.

PLS LOWER DOWN THE VOLUME. SOUND SURROUNDING VERY BAD!

watch the stunt fall at 2.42s

Is dis Bangkok University cheer squad?? Pls tag me bout dis.
jeeeeeeezzzzzz....
idk the whole story sooo no blaming on me fer uploading dis video and i cant assume its copyrighted anyway....

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 2.47am+

2008-03-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

here it goes....

a certain someone whom eu love for a long tyme hates eu,

a certain someone whom eu hate for a long tyme loves eu

how lyke dat??

nevertheless.......

i'm all over questions dat never cud anyone answer for me.

it keeps playing thru my head.

i dunt noe wad's with me.

izit me or me?

dere is still things dat is not cleared yet.

words dat never will i say.

its still not obvious yet.

i cant do it.

i juz haf to keep everything to myself.

im not gonna be stubborn and start believing in my instinct. bud not to the fullest.

keep duin things dat annoys me.

the more i hate eu. bud the feelings show how much i fall for eu.

all im tryin to say, im kinda pissed, cuz all i cud think is eu.

bud ppl say, the person eu love may annoys eu, however dey're still loved by eu.

i watch eu from far, near, beside me , infront of me, anywhere where its visible.

eu're wad i want. want and need, maybe desire.

bud dont juz leave me hanging on. its not obvious. i cant decide wad to believe eu see.

the little things eu do to me is taking me over, i wana show eu.. seriussss...

ive fallen. for eu.

im not sure wad im duin now. bud the feelings juz tells me its eu.

curiousity, believing, hoping and visibility of these feelings.

be it yours and mine.

unsolved.

i will juz open my arms and embrace wadever will cum.

im yearning to discover this mystery.

yes mystery, its exactly lyke eu.

never will anyone noe. even me. how eu'd felt, or maybe fall fer sumone.

mystery man.

i need space fer myself and even eu.

i found eu.

eu are sunshine, i fell over.

dis is real. really. and i swear.

it hit me hard. in my heart.

eu butterflied me everytyme.

ive found a state of mind, to figure out dis feelings.

these felt so ryte. bud patience. i noe. im keeping it to myself.

bottled feelings. waiting. yessss. i will wait.

how long? forever will do..... i will. keep my werds.

zip up and kept in my heart.

cuz eu're the one.

oh boy, if i were to be ur lady, i will traet eu ryte. i will give eu all of my all.

tell me wad eu need. baby i will, and never leave these feelings fer eu.

cuz eu're the one, the one who makes my heart smile.

eu noe eu care, sayang as a fren, bud dats not all.

dere's still sumwhere deep dwn in eu dat means sumtynk to me.

maybe. im not too sure. uncertainty fills me now baby.

tell me everything. tell me wad i should noe. tell me baby.

do wad eu want. dissapoint me, excite me, hurt me, love me.

im ready. im ready fer the truth.

bud maybe eu're not. i noe.

contemplatyng is never enough fer me.

i need hints. im yours baby.

bud wat about me?

what about me?

what about the world im living in now?

what about these feelings?

what about my feelings?

what about me?

always drowning in my thoughts. wen will it be done.

ily baby. i really do. and i will forever.

p.s: ppl dunt question me bout dis.

its affairs of my heart.

its between me and me.

not necessary for eu to take note.

these are feelings dat hav been kept too long.

im letting out. so pls dunt ask. plsssss.

eu can read. bud dunt paster me of ur curiousity.

thanks.

+spits. im-Shekyn-thedork, 5.56pm+

2008-03-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

Rain rain go away cum again another day!

i wan go out today!

stop raining can?

okay fine.

everytynk is settled!

fuhh~

i do not haf to wury anymore bout a single thing.

or maybe i shud.....

wad if sumone found my thumbdrive and den those pictures in it dey post it up in sum porno webbie or do sumtynk to it!

:sss

okay. im supose to get ready to mit Yana now. bud im not. why?

cuz im duin sumtynk.

sumtynk dat cant stop me from duin.

im werkyn on my band logo eu see.

ive finally made my decision to do the band logo myself.

no point assigning ppl to help us produce a logo fer us.

im not dat good at designing things yo.

bud i juz gif my bez shot lerrr....

gotta get it ready by this sunday.

am showing it to the rez of em'

and see how it goes...

maybe i haf to make sum ammendments and stuff.

and yahhh this sunday.

PHOTOSESSION with my band!!!

plus dinner wid them and jamming.

its a whole day event.

YAY! i cant fuckyn waet to see eu bitches and gays!!!

till here. and hope i'll still be alive to post my next entry. -______-'

+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 2.16pm+

Chop Suey!

2008-03-11T17:37:00.000+08:00

Thanks fer everytynk dat happen yesterday.
Thanks fer makyn me feel helpless.
Thnaks fer makyn my day the most suey day ever.
wahhhh fuck.
im hating this alrdy.

Fez thing fez, im damn ryte happy and relieve dat assesments are over.
i mean totally OVER!
fuhhhhhhh~
so many sleepless nytes juz to finysh up my werk.
wad i was wurryin bout the most is my Digi Art and Typogaphy.
bud most was Typo.
seriusss..
wen im reali interested and keen in dat particular subject, and wen it cums to assesment, my heart juz cant stop thumping.
soo fuckyn nervous and gabrah lah!

sooo far evertynk went well.
no re-submission fer anytynk.
i pity Qayuum. he has to re-submit hys design drawing.
he shud haf thicken and darken the lines lyke i told hym too.
bud lucky thing he has to re-submit one subject oni.
the rez the both of us go thru well.
heng uh!

okayy as fer the suey thingy dat i mention above, im reali upset over it.
damn lah!!
my fuckyn thumbdrive is fuckyn gone!
i fuckyn left it at the comp in my skul library.
fuck uh! i was totaly tired and i 4get dat my thumbdrive was attached to the comp.
how can i be soooooo absent-minded dat day!
yahhh how can i be huh. many sleepless nytes. feeling lyke a zombie da whole tyme in skul. yahhhhh how can i be sooooo absent-minded. dat explains how!
there goes my AI files fer typography and so many other stuff!
and yahhhh, speaking of typography, we, the VC students haf to re-submit our werk again via e-mail to Andrew!
stopid or wad! there has been an error in the grading! pffft.
bud now the thing is, ive fuckyn lost my thumbdrive lah.
and my files fer typo are in it. how?!?!
my artwerk fer typo is in it.
i do not haf a backup file in my laptop neither do i haf it in my comp.
i shud haf save a backup file everywhere lah fuck!
dammit! there goes my hard werk lah!
and my photos are all in it. my videos. my digi art documents. and so many fuckyn stuff!
uuuurghhhh! just my luck lah!
thanks.
bud i did ask Andrew fer help. i hope he still keep my files, the one dat i send hym fer approval.

i did went back to skul today to see whether anyone has report and return baq my thumbdrive.
and nutynk was returned and no news!
i leave my contact no. to the librarian juz in case anyone is sooo fuckyn kind to return it.
now whu the hell in the world wants to do dat.
who the hell in the werld is so honest and loyal to do dat.
nofuckynone lah!
but after i use dat comp, a china gerl use it.
she was Mishalini's fren. she was dere too.
i did msg Mishalini, and she said she notice the thumbdrive, bud she tot it was dat china gerl's thumbdrive and she ignored.
wooooooohhh, if onli she realised dat it was mine and there was my name written dere big big!
pffffft.

okay i tynk dis is karma. or shud i say cursed.
by who?
by ARMANDO!
pfffffttttt.
i tynk he was soo pissed off by me dat he cursed me.
thanks.
i noe i didnt do ur werk.
im aware of it.
its not dat i dunt care bout graphic design and advertising.
bud its juz toooo hard to cope with.
im strugglyng fer god's sake!! uurghhh. i feel helplesss now.
Steff did giv me a kol, thru Darran's hp though.
So kind of her to be so concerned bout me.
she told me to at least submit sumtynk to Armando so dat i wont be failed by Armando!
before dat i heard Steff said dat if i didnt submit my werk he will fail the whole class.
at dat point my heart juz sunk with WTF in my head!
how can i be responsible fer the whole class. wth lah!
hhaha! bud it was false alarm. i heard the wrong thing.
bud the point is i haf nutynk to submit to hym.
i didnt do hys werk at all.
not literally lah. i did do hys essay on advertising.
wad makes eu tynk dat if i submit hym dat i cud at least get a pass.
and if i pass also its unfair to the rez of dem whu did hys werk.
dey did self-promotional card. which wasss way too mahfan fer me.

okay Armando, im soooooo fuckyn sorry dat i didnt finysh up ur werk.
or shud i say didnt do at all!
i accept ur cursed. wtf!
i will do ur werk in future. i guez.....
thanks fer makyn me fall lyke dis.
ive realised. thanks. -________________-'

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 6.33pm+

2008-02-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

I have to let go here.
Im wuried.
Damn ryte wuried.
fuck.
fytes, arguments, rage of anger is soooo visible in da haus nw.
eu BITCH!
I hate dat woman uh.
After all, eu've been always a nuisence to the family.
Its becuz of eu we always fyte.
buto uh.
Kao tak mo sebok dok satu umah ngan kiter uh.
And now dat Wak Pik is no longer stayin wid us,
double chores fer me. fuck.
and it is also becuz of eu.
i undrstnd her situation, noe how she feel.
she's not fuckyn paid to luk after eu and she's not even related to eu!!!!
fuck.
i hav my fuckyn assignments to finish up
and i have to be responsible to keep the haus clean now.
PLUS i hav to face pronlems everytyme wid my family.
wahhhh fuck.
i hate dis.
im soooooooo fuckyn pressured!
after dad left the haus wid rage juz nw, i was super upset.
i did cry. upset uh siak.
after awhile anger ruled within me.
i was freakyn angry at myself and dat old faggot!
ohhhhhh how i wish eu were dead.
IDTS eu will die.
cuz sumone once said dat wicked,evil and fuckyn sin ppl will nvr die early.
i got dis imaginary dat sumhow one day i'll kill eu instead.
i shall poison eu to death bitch!
HELL TO YOU!
i freakyn fuckyn hate eu woman!

p.s: i hope things will get better fer mum and dad.
dunt leave me..... ily.

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 11.59pm+

2008-02-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

MY CREATION!!

VIOLAAAAA!!

And yesss dis is my creation.

HEHEHEHEHE!

My sis ask a favor frm me.

She want me to trim her hair.

And yess i have not been cutting hair fer a long tyme.

I noe she ask for trim.

Bud end up CONCAVE lah babehhh.

Bud its lyke more to Bob hair-do.

Eu noe lyke Twiggy's.

Its kinda experimenting my ability tough.

And i oso did my mum's and my grany hair too.

Sooooooo wana free hair cut.

Call 1900-SHEKYNBAGOZ-989.

ITS F.O.C KAY.

:DD

Finally ive got my own CF card for my dslr cam lah.

Im sooooooooo happy.

I noe its not exciting.

Well, for me yesss lah sey.

Aku dari dulu nak beli CF card sendiri fer my cam

so dat i dunt haf to share my CF card with dad.

Bud i didnt buy it fer myself.

Literally lah, my dad bought hys own.

BAGOZ!

Peh irritatyng lah kalao share ngan bapak aku.

I cant take pics dat is not appropriate lah.

He will be lukyn at em and nag nag nag nag nag nag....

And now i guez he get agitated dat i used up almost ol the memory

in the card dat he bought hymself hys own CF card.

BAEK UH BAPAK!!

thanks uh ehk.

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 9.42pm+

My Last Words.

2008-02-07T01:49:00.001+08:00

I guez its tyme fer me to update dis shyt lah ehk.

Since i have 5 fuckyn off-school day coz of CNY.

Thank uh eh!

Well, school has never been great to me.

It has always been a bitchhhhhhhhhhh to me. big tyme.

I dislike school becus of assigments.

I dislike school becus of the long train rides.

I dislike school becus i hav to squeeze my bloody worthless ideas duryng class revision.

I dislike school becus everyday i reach school there wil be dat moron face big big at my school's banner. those who noe, yes hys a big tyme idiot. tell me bout it.

I dislike school becus of the expensive food they served at da cafeteria. lyke KNNBCCB uh!

I dislike school becus everytyme b4 school i hav to crack my bloody brain juz to decide on wad to wear dat day. fuck nabey lah. i need more clothes lah fuck!

and the list wil never end lah i tell eu.

And yah i skipped Armando's class last Friday.

and instead teman Yana to Tp fer interview and went fer class gathering afterwards.

Why? cuz i didnt finish up hys werk.

dammit lah. hys werk load is lyke WHOAA.

mcm mane nak habeskan??

i hate advertising.

its soooooo....... ermmm...... advertisingly sucking the fun out of graphic design?

hahaa! LAME.

i heard dat only 11 turn up fer hys class

Its lyke only half the class. or maybe lesser than dat. LOL!

Clarissa told me dat he was kind of pissed off but acted calm.

Armando, Armando, Armando......... tsk, i hate eu wen eu gave out assignments.

SHYTS! okay i sooo wana stop talkin bout skul.

it irks me out lah.

im tryin my bez to put school werk as a favourite past tyme to indulge in.

NOT.

ive been muvee marathon-ing frm smlm.

ive watch:-

Cloverfield- i rate 3 stars, its lyke a remake of blair witch project dat dis tyme round is a huge MONSTER invading NYC. i rate dis 3 stars.

Alvin and the Chipmunks- One word. ADORABLELAHFUCKNABEYCHIPMUNKS. nak sehpak muke krg bleh? i rate 3 stars cuz the storyline is boring.

Bring It On: In It To Win It- Something new fer cheerleading. Hav always been interested in cheer. mcm phm uh shekyn. i rate dis 3 and steng stars.

30 days of Night- Damn ryte one awsum muvee. Vampires in Alaska. Cool or wad? i rate dis 4 stars.

Edward Scissors Hand- This has always been my all tyme favourite lah. Johnny Depp is so cute lah. Haaha! hys roles has always been the weird ones. im sooooo lovin hym. :DD

and sooooooooon i'll be duin it again.

buat ni seme bleh, assignment tak nak layan.

WADEVER~~~

and i guez so far dats ol fer now.

i miss dis two idiots.

Jasmine and Darran.

and 1M too.

:((((((((((

muz be enjoying ur CNY dinner juz nw huh.

GONG XI FA CAI!

THE STOOPID CANON SEDUCER.

BEST I EVER HAD!! IMY'all !!!

and last bud not least.

im lukyn forward fer jammyng.

i soooooooo wana jam lyke i soooooo wana go pee nw.

till then....

goodbye Romeo......

+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 2.21am+

2008-01-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday aku ge Little India.

Bey ade lah manusia siak tu panggil aku minaleng!

musibot uh kao!

nak uat cam ne..

its part of my module nye project lah brangset!

kay2.

pat bawa nie seme gmbar2 yg aku amek pat Little India.

and sum other pics dat i wana share wit ol of eu.

korang dok diam2 nengok ni seme.

mcm mane krg penat ke mls nak browse thru ke

nengok jek lah kimice!

aku mls nak update lage psl hidop aku.

krg tak yah tahu pon...

hidop aku boring lah.

nak tahu uat pe bodo.

bukan nye krg dpt duet ke dpt gold bahlol!

tak yah tahu kay, pleaseeee..

kalao nak tahu jugak, tu makne nye krg kepoh.

besar nye kepoh lah buto.

kay.

aku tak nak type lage.

diam uh bodo.

jgn kepoh uh bodo.

tak mo bace lah!

aku suroh nengok gambar kan kimice!

ehhhh.. tak masok kepleh hotak ke.

aku kate jgn bace.

ge nengok pat bawa lah kimice nye anjing!

kay.

bye!

bey masek ckp bye pe kao!

ge lah berambos!

kay.

bye!

tak mo ckp balek lah bengap!

hohohohohhohohohoho!

Nie lah kawan karib ku WOLVERINE!

mcm phm uh ni boncet!

LMAO!!

credits to Dyla!

School is startyng! -__________-"

2008-01-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

And i almost forget.

Next week skul is open!

Wahhhhh fuck.

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

till infinity...

Me and Qayum's conversation uh juz now.

becuz of hym lah aku teringat psl next week dah start skolah.

musibot btol!

QAYUM=★ says:
kau da dpt time table?

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
blom uh

QAYUM=★ says:
ouhhkk

QAYUM=★ says:
haha

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hhh kao appear offlne ehk?

QAYUM=★ says:
haha

QAYUM=★ says:
yea

QAYUM=★ says:
asl>

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
ohhh no wondr ko nye status is offline

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
asl sey?

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
ni mesti nak avoid org kan?

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hahaha!

QAYUM=★ says:
haha

QAYUM=★ says:
popular sgt la

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
wadever!

QAYUM=★ says:
eyy aku da bawak motor . phamtomm

QAYUM=★ says:
hahah

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
mcm phm uh kao!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
yer kerrr

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
lols!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
bagoz uhh

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
SP mane?

QAYUM=★ says:
haha

QAYUM=★ says:
duit dpt..

QAYUM=★ says:
duit tkde.

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
huh?

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
ape kao bebol?

QAYUM=★ says:
aku tkde duit nk beli sp

QAYUM=★ says:
haha

QAYUM=★ says:
aku tk nk skola ar

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
ehhh tak mo uhhh

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
nanty aku tak de kwn

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
rabak seyyyyy

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hahaha!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
kao kawan gereknye!

QAYUM=★ says:
kite same class ke?

QAYUM=★ says:
wahhh aku kwn gerek

QAYUM=★ says:
terharu laa

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hahaha

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
dah uh jgn kembang kay

QAYUM=★ says:
abeh moday mcm mane ? tkde timetable..

QAYUM=★ says:
tk kembang.

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
shud be uh

QAYUM=★ says:
haha

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
kalao tak pon, cnfem aku cari kao nyek, psl kao kwn gerek nyek

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hahaha!

qayum says:
haha

qayum says:
alamak asl byk flattery ni. nnti meletup aku.

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hahahaha

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
okok

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
kao kwn tak gerek nyek

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
slalu menyusahkan aku!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
haha!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
happy now.

qayum says:
hehe

qayum says:
muchh betta.

qayum says:

wakakaka!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
okok

qayum says:
hope timetable relak2 pye eyy

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
kalao leh kan, kiteorang kene rajin tao dis yr

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
aku promise tak mo main2 lagi uh

qayum says:
haha

qayum says:
wahhh

qayum says:
alamak aku pun da pressure ni

qayum says:
try ar try.

qayum says:
no more movies

qayum says:
first week jer

qayum says:
hahaha

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hahaha

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
tu uh

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
nanty slack

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
tapi aku tak leh

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
dis module gpa aku kene bagoz seyyy

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
aku nak 2.5 and above

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
chehhh mcm phm uh

qayum says:
haha

qayum says:
wahh

qayum says:
nnti kitoorg try orytes.

qayum says:
aku pun nk

qayum says:
haha

qayum says:
k la gtg

qayum says:
bye2

qayum says:
jumpe monday yee

qayum says:
slmts

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
kay2

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
bye!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
pape picit uh!

'- §HEKµⁿ®. says:
hohoo!

qayum says:
ok kau punn

+spits. im-Shekyn-thedork, 10.24pm+