whhhyyyyyyy????
what wrongs have i done to deserve dis craps????
im trying my best bud dis is wad i get.
im trying too hard and dis is enough. stop.
i cant take dis pressure no more.
its killing me slowly and eating me up inside.
ive been keeping it to myself.
nooooo. im not my usual self wen it
comes to dis type of situation.
facial expressions wont tell all.
eu gotta feel the insides and eu will noe.
im alrdy at my lowest breaking point.
i need a miracle. like seriusly.
cuz im giving dis up. soon.
maybe dis is not my future.
maybe im juz too weak to get thru dis.
ya allah, help me dis tyme.
im no longer strong neither thinking straight.
i need ur guidence.
i need eu to show me thru this walks of life.
help me. help the person within me. help me get up quickly.
help my family. help us get thru dis togeder.
i cant bare seeing mama and ayah suffering this much.
i love dem dearly. i love all of them eventhough i didnt show.
seriusssss...............................ily.
tears running dwn my eyes every night.
contemplating. juz tryin to understand my life.
bud the more i think, the more im not stable.
i did mistakes, and im trying to get back on track eu see.
ive regret. bud the most, ive regret regretting.
cuz i no its no use. i got to move on and stick with wad im gun thru.
i cant escape reality eu see.
i cant be ignorant.
i cant be stubborn.
i cant be egoistic.
patience. i need alot of dis.
oh god help me get up.
teach me how to get up be it the hard way.
i keep falling back.
at least loosen the burden of my parents and i'll do the rez.
im not complaining bout my life,
bud dis is major let down. and im feeding on it. i have to.
accept dis. be strong shekyn. wad more can eu do.
stay strong and persevere thru dis layers of let downs...
it will paid off sooner or later.
as if.
if i had one wish,
i wish dat all good things wont have its ending.
"dont let anyone stop eu frm having dreams...."
+spits, im-Shekyn-thedork, 1.28am+
