( i wana be lyke dis again. not too fat. not too kurus. not. i juz love myself before nw. pfft! dis is weight issue. im havyn it now. bloody weight issue. eu suck big tyme mofo! )i dunno why bud suddenly i feel lyke im missing sumone. idk why. i was bloghoping and i came across this blog dat belongs to a so called swan enemy. i read her post and alot of it was about her boyfy. well, to be exact dat guy use to be my special friend lyke in 2006 which was 2yrs ago. and we were at the edge of moving into a major relationship. hmmmmm... to me it was juz a typical trying to find the right guy/girl thingy. and sumhow i didnt take it seriusly after i found out dat he found sumone better than me after less msg-ing and calling. i juz wasnt sure at that time also. i was still small the pieces girl dat always think wadever happens, juz happened.
okay baq to the blog i was browsing thru. every post has this little phrase or sentence or paragraph about hym. and those photos of em togeder, is juz a major test to my sense of jealousy. bud i kept calm. bud as i kept on reading post by post, im beginning to not hate her bud congratulate and applaud her for her love for that particular guy. i feel soooo bad after all these yrs hating her fer no particular, reasonable reason. its not her fault kan? i noe. aku kan bitch. bud i respect their love fer each other sey. they're so sweet togeder. how i wish i was her. wahhhh soo feeling sia cibai! no bud i mean it. they shud hav each other. all this things happen with God's will. im so happy fer her to hav hym instead of me. dis is wad God have been planning all aong eu see. and maybe if i were to be with hym instead, maybe sumtynk unpredictable will happen. sumtynk bad. sumtynk dat i cant take it. sumtynk that i cant handle. cuz ive been applying my life with this saying " God will never give us somthing that we could not handle."
well i guess, i have made it clear girl. i have no whatsoever grudges on eu. well, be happy always with hym by ur side. take good care of hym. hys a good man. a loving and sweet one too. i wish both of eu well.
bud can i juz say dis, can i miss hym a lil. imy.
bud i miss that other person even more! like a kezillion more!
i wana be in ur closet so dat every nyte wen eu're asleep i can snuggle up to eu and hold eu in my arms till morning cums and i'll be baq in ur closet waityng for eu to slyp again.
okay dis sounds so wrong i tynk. im not a stalker or sum kind of a psycho kay.
im juz being all mushy mushy. heeeeek -.- or maybe becuz im pms-ingn ( major yay! if eu kids noe wad i mean. ) and i tend to be all mushy and emotional over small issues. hahaha! shuddup. i noe.
okay im still not slypyn yet lah. its lyke 4 in the mornin and tears are pourin.... wtf! no im not crying fer goodness sake. -.- im juz surfing the net till my body aches. okay i tynk that's about it kids. i will be updating sooner or later aye. bye kids!
p.s: i tynk Yana shud noe whu im refering to in this particular post. *nyeahaha*
+spits.im-Shekyn-thedork, 4.12 am+
