Sick Bitch.

I hate this part right here. Ive been sick lately. Everything just keeps piling up on my already weak body. I had a long-term medical leave from doc. It's still not enough. I'll be back to work tomorrow and I hope I could carry out my duty as per normal. I felt bad for my kids. They have long been neglected by me. I hope I could make up to them tomorrow at school. I miss them loads. Especially my dearest Keira. She must be missing me too. And not forgetting my Malcolm. Who would only want me by his side every second. Everywhere, anywhere and anytime he would be sticking with me like glue. How adorable in an annoying way. I have a life you know kid. okay enough said bout my kids.

I dont know what's wrong with me for the last past weeks. Ive been getting real sick lately. The sickness just appears one by one. Im surprise with what my life could bring me. A sick sick bitch. Simple. Im worried about my self-being. Why must all of this happen in times of money crisis?? Why? You know getting sick means losing money. And I hate it. When im on medical leave it means NPL. And that's losing money. Let me see how long have I'd been on medical leave..... about 5 days. I'll repeat this clearly, 5 DAYS. Jeezzz..... the money taken out from my pay is alot. And they pay me like crap. So now I'll recieve an even more crappier pay this month. How can this get anymore better? fuck. I hate this part.

In this case, Ive made up my mind to stop my current job. The explanation for this might be really hard for me to convey here. I just make it straight to the point with simple words for you lovely people to understand and read.

"Under circumstances, I, Nurul Asyiqin bte the
father, have long been wanting to look for a higher pay job and wish to resign from my current low paying job."

I know in the earlier part before I start my job, I did say that Im fine with the job. However, to my accord, I realised I shouldn't take the risk of signing the borne with them. Im afraid I could not carry out the duties with some valid reasons.

The reasons are as stated:

1. I have this gut feeling of me dropping out halfway through the borne because I jolly well understand myself.

2. I do not want to take the risk of paying about $5k if something happen in the middle of the borne. Im not some kind of a rich man's daughter you know.

3. The travelling part to my work place is very hectic and I hate the long long journey be it going to work and going back home. At least 6 trips per day. Transport money??? hell balls I cant survive like this.

4. Because of the tremendous time taken for the travelling part, Im sure I'll have no time to study or finish up my assignments when I begin the borne. I'l be tired as ever. I promise.

5. Last but not least, the pay I get suck balls big time! I swear in the name of god. It really sucks big time.

I've made up my mind. I just applied for Higher Nitec in Early Childhood just moments ago. I hope there are still vacancies. Or maybe some of the 'O' levels leavers who got the course and decided to give up on it might bring me a little chance of getting in. I hope so. Results will be release latest by 3rd April 09. I hope I could get the spot in the course. Insya'allah. This is an option for me after Ive resign the job. I might be opting in taking private dip. but is way too expensive for me. See how things goes. I need at least a CPT just to get a higher paying job in this field. My passion for this is in me. I hope I'll make it through.

till my next update......

xoxo

p.s: I know you love me bitch. xoxo. haha!